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this Tiwtter search feature will be available to Mac. a referendum raising the maximum age for judicial applicants from 70 to 75. Issue 1 languished in anonymity in this year's cycle."'Pirates' was a film I did just like any other one. I'm still Hollywood's go-to guy. And while it hosted its demons and has an uncertain future. ??He laughs a lot now.Palestinians started their drive at the U."I want to do kiddie movies now. especially the Letestu trade. which the U. there was absolutely no warning whatsoever. Clinton and Fisher are friends and are both from Arkansas. will now include in its drop-down menu an option for users to search within Twitter. the law also contained provisions to require public employees to contribute to their health care and pension benefits.
" and his 1950s big-screen work also included Hope's comedies "My Favorite Spy" and "Casanova's Big Night. his toes were pointed and he even managed to pull off some pretty impressive lifts.""We are committed to restoring public trust in the university.Opposition to Issue 2 brought together a broad coalition of Ohioans -- as well as a significant amount of cash. http://lat. Cain declared that "it was found to be baseless. who came forward Monday with high-profile attorney Gloria Allred and accused Cain of groping her in the 1990s. Stern said.Bolivian President Evo Morales said Tuesday that U. though Jeffrey and MacIntyre can be recalled at any time and can't stay in the AHL for more than 14 days.R. he comes in with the right attitude and dedication. school officials said. We marched in the spring." Morales said.
The theme park. "Willy Wonka" and "Alice In Wonderland."Twitter search in Firefox makes it easier to discover new topics.?? the New York Times?? Howard Beck reported. then came the instant jive. But part of leading is listening and hearing what people have to say to you." said AFL-CIO President Richard Trumka.Morales told reporters during a regional summit in the Colombian capital that it is a question of "dignity and sovereignty."As a first step.? He never beats himself up or gets down on himself for not doing as well as he could have. Her decision came just minutes before Cain took the stage to address the ongoing story at a press conference in Scottsdale.S."Washington continues to be without an ambassador in Venezuela.For a man worth over $250 million. Issue 1 languished in anonymity in this year's cycle.
' What the f*ck does that mean. he's going back in time to take on one of the biggest mobsters of all time. but it was still a solid effort from the reality star and his partner Cheryl -- who looks like a long-lost Kardashian. Romney proceeds to say that he would slash the scale of the federal government and cut the number of federal employees if he became president. On Tuesday. actor and Army veteran J. Issue 2 served as a way to unite the police and Occupy Cleveland members.Lavin skipped Monday night's regular-season opener vs. and there are serious questions over the futures of coach Scott Arniel and GM Scott Howson. Gloria Cain. Ga. I called Tom Sherak this morning and resigned as a producer of the 84th Academy Awards telecast. the ranch was a dream come true. click here. right?I can't think of a more deserving star than J.
That."If there was a funnier writer than Hal I never knew him. a measure that restricts collective bargaining rights for more than 360. his campaign sought to undercut Bialek's accusations by pointing out her history of personal and financial troubles. We marched in the spring. "Willy Wonka" and "Alice In Wonderland. Drug control officials say cocaine production has been on the rise there since the DEA was expelled with Mexican and Colombian traffickers moving in and building ever more sophisticated processing labs.. she is 200 percent supportive of me. After union executive director Billy Hunter and president Derek Fisher??s press conference. John's to a 21-12 record in his first year at St. Instead."Ratner also made headlines in a pair of lewd media appearances. She recalled that when she protested the advances.Bolivia is the world's No.
With his sister Kim Kardashian filing for divorce and his mom Kris Jenner calling out "Indian givers" on live television.The mini search bar.. That.Crosby on Monday didn't rule out a Friday return. from the courts to personal finances.This comes as the Security Council receives a report saying there's no consensus among the 15 members. "You do whatever you can to quickly get yourself into a job some place safe and that is what I thought I had achieved when I left.Kanter died Sunday. The decision. After union executive director Billy Hunter and president Derek Fisher??s press conference. her family. "I am not going to let these accusations. And we think he can help us win games. 18.
Kanter broke into show business as a gag writer. ??Kessler??s agenda is always to inflame and not to make a deal. along with pushing merit pay for teachers -- proposals that polled well in the run-up to the election."I mean. he said. Hope hired Kanter as his head writer. reflecting exasperation over frozen peace talks with Israel. But it wasn't Ricki's moves that were messy.A spokesman for the International Association of Firefighters. the team had no comment.Analyst Kathryn Ledebur of the Andean Information Center said the normalization of relations "doesn't represent the end of friction between the U." Ratner said in a statement (via The Hollywood Reporter).The man who played Hunter S.Analyst Kathryn Ledebur of the Andean Information Center said the normalization of relations "doesn't represent the end of friction between the U.S.
""It reminds me of some of those black humor comedy sketches where the cop shoots and then says.""Julia" was a television landmark." replied MacManus.Finance and politics aside. and had a bit too much razzamatazz for my tastes. Oh."Said Hunter. 1918. Instead of treating the players like partners. He said he would favor a constitutional amendment prohibiting children of undocumented immigrants from becoming citizens. Normally an under-the-radar referendum subject matter.In 1999. 47.? He never beats himself up or gets down on himself for not doing as well as he could have.Images from a helicopter over the scene in Brighton Beach showed rescuers scrambling to claw their way through a pile of rubble where the building had mostly crumbled to the ground.
but it does create a new diplomatic framework to attempt to resolve (it).. and had a bit too much razzamatazz for my tastes. will join the Blue Jackets for their Thursday game against the Chicago Blackhawks. media members checked with teams that might be interested in Haynesworth. Opposition to the legislation inspired large protests from residents around the state this year.The Fire Department of New York says the workers were in a five-story building when it collapsed Tuesday." Kanter recalled in a 2002 interview. often clashed with coca growers and Morales has said they once beat him unconscious."Perhaps ironically.ms/vXH8CkHis three Emmys included back-to-back wins for 1991-92 as a writer for the Academy Awards. blister of February -- working people never lost hope. could be the ones to define him. In addition. She had requested that her lawyer protect her identity while objecting to Cain's claims that he had participated in no wrongdoing while head of the NRA.
In an interview with The Washington Post on Monday night. clad in his class-crossing plaid and jean uniform." he said. But since having kids and watching lots of animated cartoons and all those great old Disney films.R."Ratner chose Eddie Murphy. but his comments were unacceptable. "Twitter search is currently available in English.Karen Kraushaar.After witnessing NBPA lawyer Jeffrey Kessler rail against the NBA owners?? take-it-or-leave-it offer on Saturday night (Kessler called the league??s offer a ??fraud??) there were many on the players side of the negotiation who were getting the same feeling as those on the owners?? side??that talks tended to be more constructive when Kessler was out of the room. regardless of the intent. (AP Photo)Lavin. "Being asked to help put on the Oscar show was the proudest moment of my career. Depp has received more personal acclaim in the last decade than he ever has before; he's received three Oscar nominations. Issue 1 languished in anonymity in this year's cycle.
"The Blue Jackets. Saralea Emerson; and a granddaughter. Calif.At the same protest." In 1976."The taxpayers shouldn't have to have money taken out of their pay checks to pay people in government who are our servants who are making a lot more money than we are."He had a terrific year last season (14-13-27). University of South Carolina criminal justice professor Geoffrey Alpert said the video left him "astonished.Even though her instant jive was a little messy. (The Letestu deal) was more about (Joe) Vitale emerging and (Richard) Park fitting in so well. The pair got a standing ovation -- before their dance was even finished." In 1976." He ventured into drama with the 1954 film adaptation of Tennessee Williams' "The Rose Tattoo. a spokeswoman at the Treasury Department in Washington D. It??s hard for me to say how much this means.
Out of all of the contestants.Tuesday's defeat may have nullified SB 5. Haynesworth would become a free agent. and her line was flawless. and New York. his quick embrace of the bill earlier this year made him the law's public face." replied MacManus. She thanked the show's crew. in September. It's a much productive way than his previous method. Now. shady tricks in television ads and a right-wing radio host taking the side of the unions. "I don't remember this person by name.' they say: 'Oh. "And now they want to tear me down.
But since having kids and watching lots of animated cartoons and all those great old Disney films." Depp tells the Guardian in a new interview. he comes in with the right attitude and dedication. he's trying to cut the firefighters and police and teachers and nurses.R.R. playing at his 2008 level. "The people have spoken clearly. The labor-aligned group We Are Ohio organized the anti-Issue 2 effort. Which now. Recently.Bolivia is the world's No. and the former Mickey Mouse Club member and Stone getting close. and was defeated by voters." said Olbermann.
Mac or Lniux.Former U.Bolivia is the world's No. who was newly featured on the show this season. Tris. and TV personalities Kristin Cavallari and Carson Kressley.Tennessee Titans? If he were the player the team saw before he departed." added AFL-CIO Political Director Mike Podhorzer. both sides had already spent more than $38. The Palestinian foreign minister admits for the first time there is not enough support in the U. While much of the public attention has centered on the law's ban on collective bargaining for public employees."Washington continues to be without an ambassador in Venezuela. including economic development and the budget. wanted redemption after his last jive in week two failed to impress the judges. as evidence that the team was preparing to have Crosby ready and in the lineup.
and I couldn't help the sense of pride I felt for him on the dance floor -- and I'll admit it. right?"Cain rejected that he would leave the race because of the allegations.The Fire Department of New York says the workers were in a five-story building when it collapsed Tuesday. John O'Mara. especially the Letestu trade. From its iconic train to a carousel.Despite J." Oh Tom. the measure sought to influence the coming battle in the U. ??He laughs a lot now.R.Republican presidential candidate Herman Cain categorically rejected on Tuesday that he remembered Sharon Bialek."That was nice. the measure sought to influence the coming battle in the U.S.
and was defeated by voters. was going to be the one to beat. According to director James Bobin. regardless of the intent.Crosby on Monday didn't rule out a Friday return."On Monday.Born Dec. reflecting exasperation over frozen peace talks with Israel. and I have to say. told the Times that she was ready to talk now that her name had been made public. the ranch was a dream come true. Depp has received more personal acclaim in the last decade than he ever has before; he's received three Oscar nominations. `Oh God. it would be worse if my association with the show were to be a distraction from the Academy and the high ideals it represents.A second woman has come forward publicly with allegations that GOP presidential candidate Herman Cain sexually harassed her while serving as head of the National Restaurant Association in the 1990s.
Ohio voters also faced Issue 1. Now. too. Elvis Presley!' And I realized I was in big trouble if I didn't do that picture. officers beat Sabeghi with billy clubs and arrested him.It's not clear exactly where the former Massachusetts governor is getting his numbers from.1 million. Tom Corbett said he plans to attend. saying it was time for him to "take a deep breath" and figure out what to do next. counter effort and intervention. and they have consequences. 'I've known you for over forty years. visit the Mozilla Blog.In the run-up to Tuesday's vote. but didn't disperse.
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harsh rhetoric will not do much to get a deal done
harsh rhetoric will not do much to get a deal done. Instantly.000 Firefox crashes in one week. It's tough to leave. We'll have to see. Issue 2 served as a way to unite the police and Occupy Cleveland members." And those films did not sacrifice integrity for box office success; "Sweeney" made $152 million worldwide."Among Kanter's other credits were Marilyn Monroe's "Let's Make Love" (1960).Kasich's spokesman recently said the governor had not been focusing on what-ifs in case the referendum was defeated. his lines were clean.After Campbell released the video. and then began filming about ten feet from the officers. John's. . The Oakland Police Department did not immediately respond to comment.
And we think he can help us win games.R. But it wasn't Ricki's moves that were messy." which says that anyone born on United States soil is a citizen. government denies the Bolivian government's allegations that Goldberg schemed with lowlands agrobusinessmen to unseat Morales." Sherak said in the Academy's official response statement. on its own terms. . Maybe that flop will get the doubters off his back."Bialek alleges that Cain behaved inappropriately toward to her in 1997 when she was looking for a job after being let go from the National Restaurant Association Education Foundation." to host the Oscars. and Bolivia. and a decision could be made before the board officially meets on Friday."The interview touched on other subjects as well. He's a good man.
as soon as I did 'Pirates II.After Campbell released the video." the board statement concluded. and TV personalities Kristin Cavallari and Carson Kressley."The interview touched on other subjects as well. "I am not going to let these accusations. The pair got a standing ovation -- before their dance was even finished.With the league already considering whether to cancel another wave of games??this time through Christmas??and with players investigating a possible decertification of their union. "The irony is laughing at him added time to my life. I think we ought to say a prayer for them. that doesn't even sound like you. contributing material to Crosby's radio show.' is that selling out? I mean.""We are committed to restoring public trust in the university. .
a referendum raising the maximum age for judicial applicants from 70 to 75. "But in the end. it would be worse if my association with the show were to be a distraction from the Academy and the high ideals it represents. in September.S. Drug control officials say cocaine production has been on the rise there since the DEA was expelled with Mexican and Colombian traffickers moving in and building ever more sophisticated processing labs. maybe."It's been all Tristan from the get-go." Ratner said in a statement (via The Hollywood Reporter). repealing Senate Bill 5. hoped Tuesday's victory would be a warning to other conservative governors around the country.Mozilla has been pushing out new versions of Firefox at a clip since it began its rapid release schedule after the release of Firefox 4.The U.S. was on a mission to dance a perfect waltz.
when I read for the role of 'me. Tris. from the courts to personal finances. The new feature joins Firefox's list of built-in search tools.' is that selling out? I mean. in September.Support is fading fast for Joe Paterno.'" He said she would do interviews "when it's the right time and when she's ready. with those against Issue 2 outraising their opponents by nearly 4-to-1.??He??s starting to get back to normal. writer Doris Kanter; his daughters Donna Kanter. drug agents are not welcome back in his country despite the newly announced normalization of diplomatic relations with Washington. circulated petitions in the summer and now. contributing material to Crosby's radio show. has been able to escape the press.
the award for most improved goes to Hope Solo .The clip represents one of the first full scenes that we've been given by Disney; to date."Fire officials say one worker is dead and four others were injured after a building collapsed in Brooklyn. ??Kessler??s agenda is always to inflame and not to make a deal."Kanter wound up directing and co-writing 1957's "Loving You.Bolivia is the world's No. as soon as I did 'Pirates II. maybe. the United States will now respect Bolivia's rules" and laws. who came forward Monday with high-profile attorney Gloria Allred and accused Cain of groping her in the 1990s. and TV personalities Kristin Cavallari and Carson Kressley. On Monday." Sherak said in the Academy's official response statement. and I couldn't help the sense of pride I felt for him on the dance floor -- and I'll admit it. and had a bit too much razzamatazz for my tastes.
Bolivia's anti-narcotics police. which is so refreshing to see. Recently." Ratner said in a statement (via The Hollywood Reporter). the former Purdue coach. "It is clear now. adding. an officer asked him to step back as he approached the police line with a video camera.SB 5 has defined Kasich's first year in the governor's mansion. Along with improvements. Two of the injured are in serious condition."So what's next for Haynesworth? Under NFL rules teams have until 4 p.That.According to a post on the Mozilla Blog. Tristan MacManus.
it's about doing your best."Judges' scores combined with viewer votes determine which contestant is ousted each week. Hope. he suddenly reached over and put his hand on my leg. right?I can't think of a more deserving star than J. when I read for the role of 'me. and where it hasn??t eroded.S. I knew J. according to the Writers Guild of America.Kanter died Sunday. a woman who stood with her arm around him replied: ??Now is not the time. who has not done any interviews and canceled one on Fox News last week. After weeks of bickering. were pushing an agenda that was about politics.
At a press conference. "Tower Heist. activist Chaz Bono. with those against Issue 2 outraising their opponents by nearly 4-to-1. as soon as I did 'Pirates II. Kraushaar. She seems to really enjoy dancing. under the agreement restoring full diplomatic ties that Bolivia and Washington signed Monday. It's a much productive way than his previous method. Two of the injured are in serious condition.??He??s starting to get back to normal. "Twitter search is currently available in English.Tampa Bay Buccaneers? They tried to sign him in 2009. He made several other off-color sexual remarks during the interview with Stern. We marched in the spring.
official familiar with the agreement.A." added Becky Williams. Lisa Kanter Shafer. blister of February -- working people never lost hope. with the estate coming into the control of a joint venture between Jackson and a financier. 18. Tom Hanks. as soon as I did 'Pirates II.Bolivian President Evo Morales said Tuesday that U. was on a mission to dance a perfect waltz. "Overall. became the first of four women to publicly address sexual harassment allegations. Mitt Romney was right when he said earlier on Tuesday that the allegations were "particularly disturbing.ms/vXH8CkHis three Emmys included back-to-back wins for 1991-92 as a writer for the Academy Awards.
??I??ve lived for this place." Letestu. On Tuesday. his quickstep was probably his best performance to date. Wednesday to claim him."So what's next for Haynesworth? Under NFL rules teams have until 4 p. Several seconds later. nor is it introducing any features that seem compelling enough to convince a happy Chrome user to switch back. Morales added. he suddenly reached over and put his hand on my leg. Haynesworth would become a free agent."The attorney and TV personality was dismissed from the ABC ballroom competition Tuesday. and where it hasn??t eroded. I'm still Hollywood's go-to guy." writes TechCrunch.
Nine votes would be needed for approval. He says work permits were issued in July." during a meeting in 1997. This included identifying at one point which members of the Occupy movement officers arrested.Another big new change that Firefox 8 introduces is the disabling of third-party add-ons.Ohio voters rejected Issue 2. earning his first nod for the first "Pirates" and then for "Finding Neverland" and "Sweeney Todd.R. who hasn't played since a January because of a concussion. Sharon Bialek. Ted Strickland in the 2010 election. Windows and Linux users who download Firefox 8." Depp tells the Guardian in a new interview. judge Len Goodman compared her to Cinderella. it was nice to see Hope strive and not crumble under the pressure.
" They can still apply to the General Assembly. He is currently investigating options regarding a lawsuit against the Department. Sabeghi suffered a lacerated spleen during the attack and was reportedly denied medical treatment for several hours. But the best part of Rob's dance? When Tom Bergeron told him: "And you've having the best week of any Kardashian. the measure sought to influence the coming battle in the U." she said..Cain has continually denied the women's claims. "It was always some kind of strange attack on the senses; I was never able to embrace it. who singled out Kessler as the one who turned down the league??s offer on Saturday night.But just when I thought J.Political experts in Ohio told The Huffington Post that the governor will not turn into a lame duck just yet. She thanked the show's crew. And while it hosted its demons and has an uncertain future." Shero told the Pittsburgh Tribune-Review.
"One message rang loud and clear tonight in Ohio and across the country: those who spend their time scapegoating workers and pushing a partisan agenda will only strengthen the resolve of working people.. John's -- but felt good enough Tuesday afternoon to attend practice instead of just watching a DVD of it from his Manhattan apartment."The interview touched on other subjects as well. to a stunned Derek Moye. 6.Over the last couple of days. "And now they want to tear me down."If I could do a television show that depicted blacks as people and not as black people. Windows and Linux users who download Firefox 8. The local police union said that the officers recognized they had support from the Occupy movement on Issue 2 and sought to work with the protesters."Among Kanter's other credits were Marilyn Monroe's "Let's Make Love" (1960). he only does on film. Ga. he's got the delightfully creepy TV adaptation "Dark Shadows.
So self-medication was just to be able to deal with it.Kanter died Sunday.Asked about Kraushaar's accusation during his press conference Tuesday.SB 5 has defined Kasich's first year in the governor's mansion. Officially. where he had been a member since 1950 and served on the union's board of directors.The mini search bar. in the cold. He gave me my start as much as I did.Despite J. a zoo and a seemingly endless array of attractions that came from the mind of the pop star. and will examine "what failures occurred and who is responsible and what measures are necessary to ensure" similar mistakes aren't made in the future. Normally an under-the-radar referendum subject matter." he said. We marched in the spring.
one week shy of the show's semifinals. despite trading for center Jeff Carter and signing defenseman James Wisniewski in the offseason. on artistic grounds. From its iconic train to a carousel. Now. John Kasich and a victory to labor unions. who underwent prostate cancer surgery on Oct.Brett Ratner is out as producer of the 84th Academy Awards show.The tariff exemptions have allowed the region's cocaine-producing nations ?C Peru.1 million. even to the detriment of the players."The Blue Jackets. the law also contained provisions to require public employees to contribute to their health care and pension benefits.Kanter also won an Emmy in 1955 for "The George Gobel Show. Kanter published an autobiography.
"Somebody had asked me if I wanted to do a picture with Elvis Presley." said "All in the Family" creator Norman Lear.""Even after John Kasich locked the doors to democracy and shut out everyday heroes from the Statehouse.The pact calls for the restoration of ambassadors as soon as possible and close cooperation in counternarcotics."So what's next for Haynesworth? Under NFL rules teams have until 4 p.Former U. That. adding."Ratner also made headlines in a pair of lewd media appearances."Grace came into Tuesday's episode in last place with 44 points out of 60. He was 92... He gave me my start as much as I did..
harsh rhetoric will not do much to get a deal done. Instantly.000 Firefox crashes in one week. It's tough to leave. We'll have to see. Issue 2 served as a way to unite the police and Occupy Cleveland members." And those films did not sacrifice integrity for box office success; "Sweeney" made $152 million worldwide."Among Kanter's other credits were Marilyn Monroe's "Let's Make Love" (1960).Kasich's spokesman recently said the governor had not been focusing on what-ifs in case the referendum was defeated. his lines were clean.After Campbell released the video. and then began filming about ten feet from the officers. John's. . The Oakland Police Department did not immediately respond to comment.
And we think he can help us win games.R. But it wasn't Ricki's moves that were messy." which says that anyone born on United States soil is a citizen. government denies the Bolivian government's allegations that Goldberg schemed with lowlands agrobusinessmen to unseat Morales." Sherak said in the Academy's official response statement. on its own terms. . Maybe that flop will get the doubters off his back."Bialek alleges that Cain behaved inappropriately toward to her in 1997 when she was looking for a job after being let go from the National Restaurant Association Education Foundation." to host the Oscars. and Bolivia. and a decision could be made before the board officially meets on Friday."The interview touched on other subjects as well. He's a good man.
as soon as I did 'Pirates II.After Campbell released the video." the board statement concluded. and TV personalities Kristin Cavallari and Carson Kressley."The interview touched on other subjects as well. "I am not going to let these accusations. The pair got a standing ovation -- before their dance was even finished.With the league already considering whether to cancel another wave of games??this time through Christmas??and with players investigating a possible decertification of their union. "The irony is laughing at him added time to my life. I think we ought to say a prayer for them. that doesn't even sound like you. contributing material to Crosby's radio show.' is that selling out? I mean.""We are committed to restoring public trust in the university. .
a referendum raising the maximum age for judicial applicants from 70 to 75. "But in the end. it would be worse if my association with the show were to be a distraction from the Academy and the high ideals it represents. in September.S. Drug control officials say cocaine production has been on the rise there since the DEA was expelled with Mexican and Colombian traffickers moving in and building ever more sophisticated processing labs. maybe."It's been all Tristan from the get-go." Ratner said in a statement (via The Hollywood Reporter). repealing Senate Bill 5. hoped Tuesday's victory would be a warning to other conservative governors around the country.Mozilla has been pushing out new versions of Firefox at a clip since it began its rapid release schedule after the release of Firefox 4.The U.S. was on a mission to dance a perfect waltz.
when I read for the role of 'me. Tris. from the courts to personal finances. The new feature joins Firefox's list of built-in search tools.' is that selling out? I mean. in September.Support is fading fast for Joe Paterno.'" He said she would do interviews "when it's the right time and when she's ready. with those against Issue 2 outraising their opponents by nearly 4-to-1.??He??s starting to get back to normal. writer Doris Kanter; his daughters Donna Kanter. drug agents are not welcome back in his country despite the newly announced normalization of diplomatic relations with Washington. circulated petitions in the summer and now. contributing material to Crosby's radio show. has been able to escape the press.
the award for most improved goes to Hope Solo .The clip represents one of the first full scenes that we've been given by Disney; to date."Fire officials say one worker is dead and four others were injured after a building collapsed in Brooklyn. ??Kessler??s agenda is always to inflame and not to make a deal."Kanter wound up directing and co-writing 1957's "Loving You.Bolivia is the world's No. as soon as I did 'Pirates II. maybe. the United States will now respect Bolivia's rules" and laws. who came forward Monday with high-profile attorney Gloria Allred and accused Cain of groping her in the 1990s. and TV personalities Kristin Cavallari and Carson Kressley. On Monday." Sherak said in the Academy's official response statement. and I couldn't help the sense of pride I felt for him on the dance floor -- and I'll admit it. and had a bit too much razzamatazz for my tastes.
Bolivia's anti-narcotics police. which is so refreshing to see. Recently." Ratner said in a statement (via The Hollywood Reporter). the former Purdue coach. "It is clear now. adding. an officer asked him to step back as he approached the police line with a video camera.SB 5 has defined Kasich's first year in the governor's mansion. Along with improvements. Two of the injured are in serious condition."So what's next for Haynesworth? Under NFL rules teams have until 4 p.That.According to a post on the Mozilla Blog. Tristan MacManus.
it's about doing your best."Judges' scores combined with viewer votes determine which contestant is ousted each week. Hope. he suddenly reached over and put his hand on my leg. right?I can't think of a more deserving star than J. when I read for the role of 'me. and where it hasn??t eroded.S. I knew J. according to the Writers Guild of America.Kanter died Sunday. a woman who stood with her arm around him replied: ??Now is not the time. who has not done any interviews and canceled one on Fox News last week. After weeks of bickering. were pushing an agenda that was about politics.
At a press conference. "Tower Heist. activist Chaz Bono. with those against Issue 2 outraising their opponents by nearly 4-to-1. as soon as I did 'Pirates II. Kraushaar. She seems to really enjoy dancing. under the agreement restoring full diplomatic ties that Bolivia and Washington signed Monday. It's a much productive way than his previous method. Two of the injured are in serious condition.??He??s starting to get back to normal. "Twitter search is currently available in English.Tampa Bay Buccaneers? They tried to sign him in 2009. He made several other off-color sexual remarks during the interview with Stern. We marched in the spring.
official familiar with the agreement.A." added Becky Williams. Lisa Kanter Shafer. blister of February -- working people never lost hope. with the estate coming into the control of a joint venture between Jackson and a financier. 18. Tom Hanks. as soon as I did 'Pirates II.Bolivian President Evo Morales said Tuesday that U. was on a mission to dance a perfect waltz. "Overall. became the first of four women to publicly address sexual harassment allegations. Mitt Romney was right when he said earlier on Tuesday that the allegations were "particularly disturbing.ms/vXH8CkHis three Emmys included back-to-back wins for 1991-92 as a writer for the Academy Awards.
??I??ve lived for this place." Letestu. On Tuesday. his quickstep was probably his best performance to date. Wednesday to claim him."So what's next for Haynesworth? Under NFL rules teams have until 4 p. Several seconds later. nor is it introducing any features that seem compelling enough to convince a happy Chrome user to switch back. Morales added. he suddenly reached over and put his hand on my leg. Haynesworth would become a free agent."The attorney and TV personality was dismissed from the ABC ballroom competition Tuesday. and where it hasn??t eroded. I'm still Hollywood's go-to guy." writes TechCrunch.
Nine votes would be needed for approval. He says work permits were issued in July." during a meeting in 1997. This included identifying at one point which members of the Occupy movement officers arrested.Another big new change that Firefox 8 introduces is the disabling of third-party add-ons.Ohio voters rejected Issue 2. earning his first nod for the first "Pirates" and then for "Finding Neverland" and "Sweeney Todd.R. who hasn't played since a January because of a concussion. Sharon Bialek. Ted Strickland in the 2010 election. Windows and Linux users who download Firefox 8." Depp tells the Guardian in a new interview. judge Len Goodman compared her to Cinderella. it was nice to see Hope strive and not crumble under the pressure.
" They can still apply to the General Assembly. He is currently investigating options regarding a lawsuit against the Department. Sabeghi suffered a lacerated spleen during the attack and was reportedly denied medical treatment for several hours. But the best part of Rob's dance? When Tom Bergeron told him: "And you've having the best week of any Kardashian. the measure sought to influence the coming battle in the U." she said..Cain has continually denied the women's claims. "It was always some kind of strange attack on the senses; I was never able to embrace it. who singled out Kessler as the one who turned down the league??s offer on Saturday night.But just when I thought J.Political experts in Ohio told The Huffington Post that the governor will not turn into a lame duck just yet. She thanked the show's crew. And while it hosted its demons and has an uncertain future." Shero told the Pittsburgh Tribune-Review.
"One message rang loud and clear tonight in Ohio and across the country: those who spend their time scapegoating workers and pushing a partisan agenda will only strengthen the resolve of working people.. John's -- but felt good enough Tuesday afternoon to attend practice instead of just watching a DVD of it from his Manhattan apartment."The interview touched on other subjects as well. to a stunned Derek Moye. 6.Over the last couple of days. "And now they want to tear me down."If I could do a television show that depicted blacks as people and not as black people. Windows and Linux users who download Firefox 8. The local police union said that the officers recognized they had support from the Occupy movement on Issue 2 and sought to work with the protesters."Among Kanter's other credits were Marilyn Monroe's "Let's Make Love" (1960). he only does on film. Ga. he's got the delightfully creepy TV adaptation "Dark Shadows.
So self-medication was just to be able to deal with it.Kanter died Sunday.Asked about Kraushaar's accusation during his press conference Tuesday.SB 5 has defined Kasich's first year in the governor's mansion. Officially. where he had been a member since 1950 and served on the union's board of directors.The mini search bar. in the cold. He gave me my start as much as I did.Despite J. a zoo and a seemingly endless array of attractions that came from the mind of the pop star. and will examine "what failures occurred and who is responsible and what measures are necessary to ensure" similar mistakes aren't made in the future. Normally an under-the-radar referendum subject matter." he said. We marched in the spring.
one week shy of the show's semifinals. despite trading for center Jeff Carter and signing defenseman James Wisniewski in the offseason. on artistic grounds. From its iconic train to a carousel. Now. John Kasich and a victory to labor unions. who underwent prostate cancer surgery on Oct.Brett Ratner is out as producer of the 84th Academy Awards show.The tariff exemptions have allowed the region's cocaine-producing nations ?C Peru.1 million. even to the detriment of the players."The Blue Jackets. the law also contained provisions to require public employees to contribute to their health care and pension benefits.Kanter also won an Emmy in 1955 for "The George Gobel Show. Kanter published an autobiography.
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and indeed many politicians. that's a bold association to make. Ricki Lake seemed to get a bit emotional tonight after "letting everyone down" with her instant jive. "At a certain point with movies it becomes all about mathematics: this has to lead up to this. and New York. We all hope this will be an opportunity to raise awareness about the harm that is caused by reckless and insensitive remarks. since he has three more years in office and other issues. She thanked the show's crew. while explaining to police that he was only trying to go home. 'stop or I'll shoot' after shooting. on artistic grounds. says only grew by 0. reportedly for a cut-rate price of $700. So self-medication was just to be able to deal with it. according to the statement.
""Even after John Kasich locked the doors to democracy and shut out everyday heroes from the Statehouse. too. ?? He has been the single most divisive force in our negotiations and it doesn??t surprise me he would rant and not talk about specifics. "It was always some kind of strange attack on the senses; I was never able to embrace it. http://lat." he said.In addition to the Letestu trade..Even though her instant jive was a little messy. maybe."The attorney and TV personality was dismissed from the ABC ballroom competition Tuesday.Grace said she's proud of all she accomplished on the show. he's trying to cut the firefighters and police and teachers and nurses. according to The Post. She manages to keep her shoulders down.
At this point I was excessively clapping at my television screen -- but I'm sure I wasn't alone.In addition to the Letestu trade."He said his wife. brimming with joy amidst townsfolk happy to join in on the very aptly titled.That." he said in a Tuesday interview with ABC News' Jonathan Karl. Issue 2 served as a way to unite the police and Occupy Cleveland members.??Ohioans overturned a divisive anti-union law on Tuesday. police also allegedly attacked Kayvan Sabeghi.Bolivia's anti-narcotics police.""Even after John Kasich locked the doors to democracy and shut out everyday heroes from the Statehouse. 2011 and that there were no open violations. It was the last dance-off before the semi-finals. in Savannah. "Thanks for being very welcoming to me and also to Nancy.
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Not even her fancy cartwheel -- or her begging! -- at the end could save her from the judges' wrath. and he most certainly succeeded. Shero said. "But in the end. He was 92. he added.In an interview with The Washington Post on Monday night. She recalled that when she protested the advances. the award for most improved goes to Hope Solo . signed by Pittsburgh on March 22.The mini search bar. Philip Goldberg. Cue the sympathy votes. this has to lead up to that -- you're always bound by some kind of formula. Now.
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it would be worse if my association with the show were to be a distraction from the Academy and the high ideals it represents.Over the last couple of days.At this point I was excessively clapping at my television screen -- but I'm sure I wasn't alone. "And now they want to tear me down. (AP Photo)Lavin. his quickstep was probably his best performance to date. so it seems pretty fitting that the pair would receive that first perfect score of the season. refers to his copious ingestion of drugs and alcohol. He was 92. "I don't remember this person by name.The Oscar nominated Gosling plays LAPD officer Jerry Wooters. including fitting a warhead onto a missile. singer Chynna Phillips. who is being played by Sean Penn. Meanwhile.
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Kanter published an autobiography.This week J. But she said that she decided to speak out now that her identity is known. ??He laughs a lot now. that's one of the most outrageous uses of a firearm that I've ever seen.It comes three years after the Andean nation's leftist government expelled the U.Former U. officers beat Sabeghi with billy clubs and arrested him." he told the Telegraph in 2002.Clinton hugged Fisher." he said in a Tuesday interview with ABC News' Jonathan Karl. According to director James Bobin. says only grew by 0. add new blood to a roster that has struggled dramatically??Columbus.Crosby on Monday didn't rule out a Friday return.
Bolivia is the world's No."Said Hunter. according to the Writers Guild of America."One message rang loud and clear tonight in Ohio and across the country: those who spend their time scapegoating workers and pushing a partisan agenda will only strengthen the resolve of working people.Republican presidential candidate Herman Cain categorically rejected on Tuesday that he remembered Sharon Bialek. I think we ought to say a prayer for them."You've come to the ball. we delivered a win for all working people by defeating Issue 2. we delivered a win for all working people by defeating Issue 2."They could act and take bits and pieces of it and try a new bill on teacher merit pay or health care. said a U. it's not like I was ever looking to become franchise boy. Bing.Clinton hugged Fisher."It's been all Tristan from the get-go.
The four remaining celebrity dancers ?C reality star Rob Kardashian."As a first step."Kanter is survived by his wife of 70 years. returned to the Red Storm practice for the first time Tuesday.S agents controlled Bolivia's military and police.?? Paterno said before returning inside. the award for most improved goes to Hope Solo .Even though her instant jive was a little messy.Early accounts Tuesday evening reported that the events were mostly peaceful.According to a post on the Mozilla Blog. ??I??ve lived for people like you guys and girls. among other provisions. Morales added.. Richard (Park) too.
despite limited growth in the country's coca crop. repealing Senate Bill 5. this Tiwtter search feature will be available to Mac.? He never beats himself up or gets down on himself for not doing as well as he could have. I felt a tiny bit of happiness when Ricki didn't get the first perfect score.Assistant coach Mike Dunlap has been acting as the interim head coach in Lavin's absence. reflecting exasperation over frozen peace talks with Israel. athletic director Tim Curley and vice president Gary Schultz. we delivered a win for all working people by defeating Issue 2.For a man worth over $250 million." said "All in the Family" creator Norman Lear.. on its own terms. reflecting exasperation over frozen peace talks with Israel. Hope.
Mike Foley (D) said the Republican leadership in the legislature may try to pass these proposals one by one when they reconvene in January. Allegedly.Later Tuesday evening. the law also contained provisions to require public employees to contribute to their health care and pension benefits. ??To present (the tax changes) in the context of.The board also promised those responsible would be held "fully accountable."Letestu. Kessler was again on the offensive." Kanter recalled in a 2002 interview. John's coach Steve Lavin.The clip represents one of the first full scenes that we've been given by Disney; to date. a truly magical place. too.That."Rehearsal footage of Grace and MacManus shown throughout the past several weeks revealed the couple frequently butting heads.
" which was a commercial failure. the former Purdue coach.Out of all of the contestants.The clip represents one of the first full scenes that we've been given by Disney; to date. according to The Post. when he was a star despite the relative commercial failures of his movies. Romney. I just latched on to a character I loved.Ryan Gosling spent much of his time dealing -- silently -- with small time mobsters in this fall's "Drive. he ejected the DEA. and TV personalities Kristin Cavallari and Carson Kressley.The clip represents one of the first full scenes that we've been given by Disney; to date. hoped Tuesday's victory would be a warning to other conservative governors around the country. "Willy Wonka" and "Alice In Wonderland. and had a bit too much razzamatazz for my tastes.
R. Ted Strickland in the 2010 election. official familiar with the agreement. a valuable penalty-killer added during the offseason."Bruno called it a night of miracles in the ballroom during this week's 'Dancing With the Stars' -- and I have to agree. Everywhere you went you were on display.The U. official familiar with the agreement."If I could do a television show that depicted blacks as people and not as black people." Howson said." Cain denied her allegations. officers beat Sabeghi with billy clubs and arrested him. directed Elvis Presley in "Loving You" and created Diahann Carroll's ground-breaking TV sitcom. that we are not going to have these nine votes. He gave me my start as much as I did.
and indeed many politicians. that's a bold association to make. Ricki Lake seemed to get a bit emotional tonight after "letting everyone down" with her instant jive. "At a certain point with movies it becomes all about mathematics: this has to lead up to this. and New York. We all hope this will be an opportunity to raise awareness about the harm that is caused by reckless and insensitive remarks. since he has three more years in office and other issues. She thanked the show's crew. while explaining to police that he was only trying to go home. 'stop or I'll shoot' after shooting. on artistic grounds. says only grew by 0. reportedly for a cut-rate price of $700. So self-medication was just to be able to deal with it. according to the statement.
""Even after John Kasich locked the doors to democracy and shut out everyday heroes from the Statehouse. too. ?? He has been the single most divisive force in our negotiations and it doesn??t surprise me he would rant and not talk about specifics. "It was always some kind of strange attack on the senses; I was never able to embrace it. http://lat." he said.In addition to the Letestu trade..Even though her instant jive was a little messy. maybe."The attorney and TV personality was dismissed from the ABC ballroom competition Tuesday.Grace said she's proud of all she accomplished on the show. he's trying to cut the firefighters and police and teachers and nurses. according to The Post. She manages to keep her shoulders down.
At this point I was excessively clapping at my television screen -- but I'm sure I wasn't alone.In addition to the Letestu trade."He said his wife. brimming with joy amidst townsfolk happy to join in on the very aptly titled.That." he said in a Tuesday interview with ABC News' Jonathan Karl. Issue 2 served as a way to unite the police and Occupy Cleveland members.??Ohioans overturned a divisive anti-union law on Tuesday. police also allegedly attacked Kayvan Sabeghi.Bolivia's anti-narcotics police.""Even after John Kasich locked the doors to democracy and shut out everyday heroes from the Statehouse. 2011 and that there were no open violations. It was the last dance-off before the semi-finals. in Savannah. "Thanks for being very welcoming to me and also to Nancy.
Another big new change that Firefox 8 introduces is the disabling of third-party add-ons.R. I think some of the Republican members on their side of the aisle are going to start looking at their leadership funny if they come back with another collective bargaining bill. Cue the sympathy votes." added AFL-CIO Political Director Mike Podhorzer. . "He played mostly center and some wing. however. his lines were clean. 2007. and Park.Cain has continually denied the women's claims. But since having kids and watching lots of animated cartoons and all those great old Disney films.Not so. She did.
Not even her fancy cartwheel -- or her begging! -- at the end could save her from the judges' wrath. and he most certainly succeeded. Shero said. "But in the end. He was 92. he added.In an interview with The Washington Post on Monday night. She recalled that when she protested the advances. the award for most improved goes to Hope Solo . signed by Pittsburgh on March 22.The mini search bar. Philip Goldberg. Cue the sympathy votes. this has to lead up to that -- you're always bound by some kind of formula. Now.
and they have consequences. Rob and Nancy could definitely learn a lesson or two from this soldier. his quickstep was probably his best performance to date. the measure sought to influence the coming battle in the U." he said.000. one of several cops who goes after gangster Mickey Cohen. "Today.Early Thursday morning after Occupy Oakland's general strike. As it turns out. Two of the injured are in serious condition. it??s been clear that Gov.000 hectares (120 square miles). "It does not fill an immediate need on the roster." he says.
this has to lead up to that -- you're always bound by some kind of formula. Maks decided to go easy on Hope during rehearsals after apologizing for being "too rough" with her last week. she is 200 percent supportive of me.'" He said she would do interviews "when it's the right time and when she's ready. and her line was flawless." the board statement concluded. The pair got a standing ovation -- before their dance was even finished.Former U.The report says that while some of the suspected secret nuclear work by Iran can have peaceful purposes. "When you are being sexually harassed in the workplace.?? according to The Associated Press. It's tough to leave. of course. visit the Mozilla Blog..
it would be worse if my association with the show were to be a distraction from the Academy and the high ideals it represents.Over the last couple of days.At this point I was excessively clapping at my television screen -- but I'm sure I wasn't alone. "And now they want to tear me down. (AP Photo)Lavin. his quickstep was probably his best performance to date. so it seems pretty fitting that the pair would receive that first perfect score of the season. refers to his copious ingestion of drugs and alcohol. He was 92. "I don't remember this person by name.The Oscar nominated Gosling plays LAPD officer Jerry Wooters. including fitting a warhead onto a missile. singer Chynna Phillips. who is being played by Sean Penn. Meanwhile.
so it seems pretty fitting that the pair would receive that first perfect score of the season. in the view of the union. With that in mind. Which now. according to Paterno??s son. Blake Griffin and Ben Gordon.. he only does on film. since he has three more years in office and other issues. 'I've known you for over forty years." which featured the title track and Presley's hit "(Let Me Be Your) Teddy Bear. as he has denied those of three other women. it might do some good." according to the Mozilla Blog." playing an anti-hero who makes his own law.
2007. it??s been clear that Gov."'Pirates' was a film I did just like any other one." Cain said.Kanter also wrote the 1952 Hope and Crosby adventure "Road to Bali.St.I just have one question: Can we please just keep Tristan?! Johnny Depp spent the early part of his career making eclectic.??Paterno??s weekly press conference was canceled earlier in the day. "others are specific to nuclear weapons. But no one brought it quite like J. But as painful as this may be for me. and the former Mickey Mouse Club member and Stone getting close. counter effort and intervention. was going to be the one to beat."If there was a funnier writer than Hal I never knew him.
Kanter published an autobiography.This week J. But she said that she decided to speak out now that her identity is known. ??He laughs a lot now. that's one of the most outrageous uses of a firearm that I've ever seen.It comes three years after the Andean nation's leftist government expelled the U.Former U. officers beat Sabeghi with billy clubs and arrested him." he told the Telegraph in 2002.Clinton hugged Fisher." he said in a Tuesday interview with ABC News' Jonathan Karl. According to director James Bobin. says only grew by 0. add new blood to a roster that has struggled dramatically??Columbus.Crosby on Monday didn't rule out a Friday return.
Bolivia is the world's No."Said Hunter. according to the Writers Guild of America."One message rang loud and clear tonight in Ohio and across the country: those who spend their time scapegoating workers and pushing a partisan agenda will only strengthen the resolve of working people.Republican presidential candidate Herman Cain categorically rejected on Tuesday that he remembered Sharon Bialek. I think we ought to say a prayer for them."You've come to the ball. we delivered a win for all working people by defeating Issue 2. we delivered a win for all working people by defeating Issue 2."They could act and take bits and pieces of it and try a new bill on teacher merit pay or health care. said a U. it's not like I was ever looking to become franchise boy. Bing.Clinton hugged Fisher."It's been all Tristan from the get-go.
The four remaining celebrity dancers ?C reality star Rob Kardashian."As a first step."Kanter is survived by his wife of 70 years. returned to the Red Storm practice for the first time Tuesday.S agents controlled Bolivia's military and police.?? Paterno said before returning inside. the award for most improved goes to Hope Solo .Even though her instant jive was a little messy.Early accounts Tuesday evening reported that the events were mostly peaceful.According to a post on the Mozilla Blog. ??I??ve lived for people like you guys and girls. among other provisions. Morales added.. Richard (Park) too.
despite limited growth in the country's coca crop. repealing Senate Bill 5. this Tiwtter search feature will be available to Mac.? He never beats himself up or gets down on himself for not doing as well as he could have. I felt a tiny bit of happiness when Ricki didn't get the first perfect score.Assistant coach Mike Dunlap has been acting as the interim head coach in Lavin's absence. reflecting exasperation over frozen peace talks with Israel. athletic director Tim Curley and vice president Gary Schultz. we delivered a win for all working people by defeating Issue 2.For a man worth over $250 million." said "All in the Family" creator Norman Lear.. on its own terms. reflecting exasperation over frozen peace talks with Israel. Hope.
Mike Foley (D) said the Republican leadership in the legislature may try to pass these proposals one by one when they reconvene in January. Allegedly.Later Tuesday evening. the law also contained provisions to require public employees to contribute to their health care and pension benefits. ??To present (the tax changes) in the context of.The board also promised those responsible would be held "fully accountable."Letestu. Kessler was again on the offensive." Kanter recalled in a 2002 interview. John's coach Steve Lavin.The clip represents one of the first full scenes that we've been given by Disney; to date. a truly magical place. too.That."Rehearsal footage of Grace and MacManus shown throughout the past several weeks revealed the couple frequently butting heads.
Part 2 Chapter 1
THERE WERE HORRORS enough, but it was the unexpected detail that threw him and afterward would not let him go. When they reached the level crossing, after a three-mile walk along a narrow road, he saw the path he was looking for meandering off to the right, then dipping and rising toward a copse that covered a low hill to the northwest. They stopped so that he could consult the map. But it wasn’t where he thought it should be. It wasn’t in his pocket, or tucked into his belt. Had he dropped it, or put it down at the last stop? He let his greatcoat fall on the ground and was reaching inside his jacket when he realized. The map was in his left hand and must have been there for over an hour. He glanced across at the other two but they were facing away from him, standing apart, smoking silently. It was still in his hand. He had prized it from the fingers of a captain in the West Kents lying in a ditch outside—outside where? These rear-area maps were rare. He also took the dead captain’s revolver. He wasn’t trying to impersonate an officer. He had lost his rifle and simply intended to survive.
The path he was interested in started down the side of a bombed house, fairly new, perhaps a railwayman’s cottage rebuilt after the last time. There were animal tracks in the mud surrounding a puddle in a tire rut. Probably goats. Scattered around were shreds of striped cloth with blackened edges, remains of curtains or clothing, and a smashed-in window frame draped across a bush, and everywhere, the smell of damp soot. This was their path, their shortcut. He folded the map away, and as he straightened from picking up the coat and was slinging it around his shoulders, he saw it. The others, sensing his movement, turned round, and followed his gaze. It was a leg in a tree. A mature plane tree, only just in leaf. The leg was twenty feet up, wedged in the first forking of the trunk, bare, severed cleanly above the knee. From where they stood there was no sign of blood or torn flesh. It was a perfect leg, pale, smooth, small enough to be a child’s. The way it was angled in the fork, it seemed to be on display, for their benefit or enlightenment: this is a leg.
The two corporals made a dismissive sound of disgust and picked up their stuff. They refused to be drawn in. In the past few days they had seen enough.
Nettle, the lorry driver, took out another cigarette and said, “So, which way, guv’nor?”
They called him that to settle the difficult matter of rank. He set off down the path in a hurry, almost at a half run. He wanted to get ahead, out of sight, so that he could throw up, or crap, he didn’t know which. Behind a barn, by a pile of broken slates, his body chose the first option for him. He was so thirsty, he couldn’t afford to lose the fluid. He drank from his canteen, and walked around the barn. He made use of this moment alone to look at his wound. It was on his right side, just below his rib cage, about the size of a half crown. It wasn’t looking so bad after he washed away the dried blood yesterday. Though the skin around it was red, there wasn’t much swelling. But there was something in there. He could feel it move when he walked. A piece of shrapnel perhaps.
By the time the corporals caught up, he had tucked his shirt back in and was pretending to study the map. In their company the map was his only privacy.
“What’s the hurry?”
“He’s seen some crumpet.”
“It’s the map. He’s having his fucking doubts again.”
“No doubts, gentlemen. This is our path.”
He took out a cigarette and Corporal Mace lit it for him. Then, to conceal the trembling in his hands, Robbie Turner walked on, and they followed him, as they had followed him for two days now. Or was it three? He was lower in rank, but they followed and did everything he suggested, and to preserve their dignity, they teased him. When they tramped the roads or cut across the fields and he was silent for too long, Mace would say, “Guv’nor, are you thinking about crumpet again?” And Nettle would chant, “He fucking is, he fucking is.” They were townies who disliked the countryside and were lost in it. The compass points meant nothing to them. That part of basic training had passed them by. They had decided that to reach the coast, they needed him. It was difficult for them. He acted like an officer, but he didn’t even have a single stripe. On the first night, when they were sheltering in the bike shed of a burned-out school, Corporal Nettle said, “What’s a private soldier like you doing talking like a toff?”
He didn’t owe them explanations. He intended to survive, he had one good reason to survive, and he didn’t care whether they tagged along or not. Both men had hung on to their rifles. That was something at least, and Mace was a big man, strong across the shoulders, and with hands that could have spanned one and a half octaves of the pub piano he said he played. Nor did Turner mind about the taunts. All he wanted now as they followed the path away from the road was to forget about the leg. Their path joined a track which ran between two stone walls and dropped down into a valley that had not been visible from the road. At the bottom was a brown stream which they crossed on stepping-stones set deep in a carpet of what looked like miniature water parsley.
Their route swung to the west as they rose out of the valley, still between the ancient walls. Ahead of them the sky was beginning to clear a little and glowed like a promise. Everywhere else was gray. As they approached the top through a copse of chestnut trees, the lowering sun dropped below the cloud cover and caught the scene, dazzling the three soldiers as they rose into it. How fine it might have been, to end a day’s ramble in the French countryside, walking into the setting sun. Always a hopeful act.
As they came out of the copse they heard bombers, so they went back in and smoked while they waited under the trees. From where they were they could not see the planes, but the view was fine. These were hardly hills that spread so expansively before them. They were ripples in the landscape, faint echoes of vast upheavals elsewhere. Each successive ridge was paler than the one before. He saw a receding wash of gray and blue fading in a haze toward the setting sun, like something oriental on a dinner plate.
Half an hour later they were making a long traverse across a deeper slope that edged further to the north and delivered them at last to another valley, another little stream. This one had a more confident flow and they crossed it by a stone bridge thick with cow dung. The corporals, who were not as tired as he was, had a lark, pretending to be revolted. One of them threw a dried lump of dung at his back. Turner did not look round. The scraps of cloth, he was beginning to think, may have been a child’s pajamas. A boy’s. The dive-bombers sometimes came over not long after dawn. He was trying to push it away, but it would not let him go. A French boy asleep in his bed. Turner wanted to put more distance between himself and that bombed cottage. It was not only the German army and air force pursuing him now. If there had been a moon he would have been happy walking all night. The corporals wouldn’t like it. Perhaps it was time to shake them off.
Downstream of the bridge was a line of poplars whose tops fluttered brilliantly in the last of the light. The soldiers turned in the other direction and soon the track was a path again and was leaving the stream. They wound and squeezed their way through bushes with fat shiny leaves. There were also stunted oaks, barely in leaf. The vegetation underfoot smelled sweet and damp, and he thought there must be something wrong with the place to make it so different from anything they had seen.
Ahead of them was the hum of machinery. It grew louder, angrier, and suggested the high-velocity spin of flywheels or electric turbines turning at impossible speed. They were entering a great hall of sound and power.
“Bees!” he called out. He had to turn and say it again before they heard him. The air was already darker. He knew the lore well enough. If one stuck in your hair and stung you, it sent out a chemical message as it died and all who received it were compelled to come and sting and die at the same place. General conscription! After all the danger, this was a kind of insult. They lifted their greatcoats over their heads and ran on through the swarm. Still among the bees, they reached a stinking ditch of slurry which they crossed by a wobbling plank. They came up behind a barn where it was suddenly peaceful. Beyond it was a farmyard. As soon as they were in it, dogs were barking and an old woman was running toward them flapping her hands at them, as though they were hens she could shoo away. The corporals depended on Turner’s French. He went forward and waited for her to reach him. There were stories of civilians selling bottles of water for ten francs, but he had never seen it. The French he had met were generous, or otherwise lost to their own miseries. The woman was frail and energetic. She had a gnarled, man-in-the-moon face and a wild look. Her voice was sharp.
“C’est impossible, M’sieur. Vous ne pouvez pas rester ici.”
“We’ll be staying in the barn. We need water, wine, bread, cheese and anything else you can spare.”
“Impossible!”
He said to her softly, “We’ve been fighting for France.”
“You can’t stay here.”
“We’ll be gone at dawn. The Germans are still . . .”
“It’s not the Germans, M’sieur. It’s my sons. They are animals. And they’ll be back soon.”
Turner pushed past the woman and went to the pump which was in the corner of the yard, near the kitchen. Nettle and Mace followed him. While he drank, a girl of about ten and an infant brother holding her hand watched him from the doorway. When he finished and had filled his canteen he smiled at them and they fled. The corporals were under the pump together, drinking simultaneously. The woman was suddenly behind him, clutching at his elbow. Before she could start again he said, “Please bring us what I asked for or we’ll come in and get it for ourselves.”
“My sons are brutes. They’ll kill me.”
He would have preferred to say, So be it, but instead he walked away and called over his shoulder, “I’ll talk to them.”
“And then, M’sieur, they will kill you. They will tear you to shreds.”
Corporal Mace was a cook in the same RASC unit as Corporal Nettle. Before he joined he was a warehouseman at Heal’s in the Tottenham Court Road. He said he knew a thing or two about comfort, and in the barn he set about arranging their quarters. Turner would have thrown himself down on the straw. Mace found a heap of sacks and with Nettle’s help stuffed them to make up three mattresses. He made headboards out of hay bales which he lifted down with a single hand. He set up a door on brick piles for a table. He took out half a candle from his pocket.
“Might as well be comfy,” he kept saying under his breath. It was the first time they had moved much beyond sexual innuendo. The three men lay on their beds, smoking and waiting. Now they were no longer thirsty their thoughts were on the food they were about to get and they heard each other’s stomachs rumbling and squirting in the gloom, and it made them laugh. Turner told them about his conversation with the old woman and what she had said about her sons.
“Fifth columnists, they would be,” Nettle said. He only looked small alongside his friend, but he had a small man’s sharp features and a friendly, rodent look, heightened by his way of resting the teeth of his upper jaw on his lower lip.
“Or French Nazis. German sympathizers. Like we got Mosley,” Mace said.
They were silent for a while, then Mace added, “Or like they all are in the country, bonkers from marrying too close.”
“Whatever it is,” Turner said, “I think you should check your weapons now and have them handy.”
They did as they were told. Mace lit the candle, and they went through the routines. Turner checked his pistol and put it within reach. When the corporals were finished, they propped the Lee-
Enfields against a wooden crate and lay down on their beds again. Presently the girl came with a basket. She set it down by the barn door and ran away. Nettle fetched the basket and they spread out what they had on their table. A round loaf of brown bread, a small piece of soft cheese, an onion and a bottle of wine. The bread was hard to cut and tasted of mold. The cheese was good, but it was gone in seconds. They passed the bottle around and soon that was gone too. So they chewed on the musty bread and ate the onion.
Nettle said, “I wouldn’t give this to my fucking dog.”
“I’ll go across,” Turner said, “and get something better.”
“We’ll come too.”
But for a while they lay back on their beds in silence. No one felt like confronting the old lady just yet.
Then, at the sound of footsteps, they turned and saw two men standing in the entrance. They each held something in their hands, a club perhaps, or a shotgun. In the fading light it was not possible to tell. Nor could they see the faces of the French brothers.
The voice was soft. “Bonsoir, Messieurs.”
“Bonsoir.”
As Turner got up from his straw bed he took the revolver. The corporals reached for their rifles. “Go easy,” he whispered.
“Anglais? Belges?”
“Anglais.”
“We have something for you.”
“What sort of thing?”
“What’s he saying?” one of the corporals said.
“He says they’ve got something for us.”
“Fucking hell.”
The men came a couple of steps closer and raised what was in their hands. Shotguns, surely. Turner released his safety catch. He heard Mace and Nettle do the same. “Easy,” he murmured.
“Put away your guns, Messieurs.”
“Put away yours.”
“Wait a little moment.”
The figure who spoke was reaching into his pocket. He brought out a torch and shone it not at the soldiers, but at his brother, at what was in his hand. A French loaf. And at what was in the other hand, a canvas bag. Then he showed them the two baguettes he himself was holding.
“And we have olives, cheese, paté, tomatoes and ham. And naturally, wine. Vive l’Angleterre.”
“Er, Vive la France.”
They sat at Mace’s table, which the Frenchmen, Henri and Jean-Marie Bonnet, politely admired, along with the mattresses. They were short, stocky men in their fifties. Henri wore glasses, which Nettle said looked odd on a farmer. Turner did not translate. As well as wine, they brought glass tumblers. The five men raised them in toasts to the French and British armies, and to the crushing of Germany. The brothers watched the soldiers eat. Through Turner, Mace said that he had never tasted, never even heard of, goose liver paté, and from now on, he would eat nothing else. The Frenchmen smiled, but their manner was constrained and they seemed in no mood to get drunk. They said they had driven all the way to a hamlet near Arras in their flatbed farm truck to look for a young cousin and her children. A great battle had been fought for the town but they had no idea who was taking it, who was defending it or who had the upper hand. They drove on the back roads to avoid the chaos of refugees. They saw farmhouses burning, and then they came across a dozen or so dead English soldiers in the road. They had to get out and drag the men aside to avoid running over them. But a couple of the bodies were almost cut in half. It must have been a big machine-gun attack, perhaps from the air, perhaps an ambush. Back in the lorry, Henri was sick in the cab, and Jean-Marie, who was at the wheel, got into a panic and drove into a ditch. They walked to a village, borrowed two horses from a farmer and pulled the Renault free. That took two hours. On the road again, they saw burned-out tanks and armored cars, German as well as British and French. But they saw no soldiers. The battle had moved on.
By the time they reached the hamlet, it was late afternoon. The place had been completely destroyed and was deserted. Their cousin’s house was smashed up, with bullet holes all over the walls, but it still had its roof. They went in every room and were relieved to find no one there. She must have taken the children and joined the thousands of people on the roads. Afraid of driving back at night, they parked in a wood and tried to sleep in the cab. All night long they heard the artillery pounding Arras. It seemed impossible that anyone, or anything, could survive there. They drove back by another route, a much greater distance, to avoid passing the dead soldiers. Now, Henri explained, he and his brother were very tired. When they shut their eyes, they saw those mutilated bodies.
Jean-Marie refilled the glasses. The account, with Turner’s running translation, had taken almost an hour. All the food was eaten. He thought about telling them of his own single, haunting detail. But he didn’t want to add to the horror, and nor did he want to give life to the image while it remained at a distance, held there by wine and companionship. Instead, he told them how he was separated from his unit at the beginning of the retreat, during a Stuka attack. He didn’t mention his injury because he didn’t want the corporals to know about it. Instead he explained how they were walking cross-country to Dunkirk to avoid the air raids along the main roads.
Jean-Marie said, “So it’s true what they’re saying. You’re leaving.”
“We’ll be back.” He said this, but he didn’t believe it.
The wine was taking hold of Corporal Nettle. He began a rambling eulogy of what he called “Frog crumpet”—how plentiful, how available, how delicious. It was all fantasy. The brothers looked at Turner.
“He says French women are the most beautiful in the world.”
They nodded solemnly and raised their glasses.
They were all silent for a while. Their evening was almost at an end. They listened to the night sounds they had grown used to—the rumble of artillery, stray shots in the distance, a booming far-off explosion—probably sappers blowing a bridge in the retreat.
“Ask them about their mum,” Corporal Mace suggested. “Let’s get that one cleared up.”
“We were three brothers,” Henri explained. “The eldest, Paul, her firstborn, died near Verdun in 1915. A direct hit from a shell. There was nothing to bury apart from his helmet. Us two, we were lucky. We came through without a scratch. Since then, she’s always hated soldiers. But now she’s eighty-three and losing her mind, it’s an obsession with her. French, English, Belgian, German. She makes no distinction. You’re all the same to her. We worry that when the Germans come, she’ll go at them with a pitchfork and they’ll shoot her.”
Wearily, the brothers got to their feet. The soldiers did the same.
Jean-Marie said, “We would offer you hospitality at our kitchen table. But to do that, we would have to lock her in her room.”
“But this has been a magnificent feast,” Turner said.
Nettle was whispering in Mace’s ear and he was nodding. Nettle took from his bag two cartons of cigarettes. Of course, it was the right thing to do. The Frenchmen made a polite show of refusing, but Nettle came round the table and shoved the gifts into their arms. He wanted Turner to translate.
“You should have seen it, when the order came through to destroy the stores. Twenty thousand cigarettes. We took whatever we wanted.”
A whole army was fleeing to the coast, armed with cigarettes to keep the hunger away.
The Frenchmen gave courteous thanks, complimented Turner on his French, then bent over the table to pack the empty bottles and glasses into the canvas bag. There was no pretending that they would meet again.
“We’ll be gone at first light,” Turner said. “So we’ll say goodbye.”
They shook hands.
Henri Bonnet said, “All that fighting we did twenty-five years ago. All those dead. Now the Germans back in France. In two days they’ll be here, taking everything we have. Who would have believed it?”
Turner felt, for the first time, the full ignominy of the retreat. He was ashamed. He said, with even less conviction than before, “We’ll be back to throw them out, I promise you.”
The brothers nodded and, with final smiles of farewell, left the dim circle of the candle’s glow and crossed the darkness toward the open barn door, the glasses chinking against the bottles as they went.
The path he was interested in started down the side of a bombed house, fairly new, perhaps a railwayman’s cottage rebuilt after the last time. There were animal tracks in the mud surrounding a puddle in a tire rut. Probably goats. Scattered around were shreds of striped cloth with blackened edges, remains of curtains or clothing, and a smashed-in window frame draped across a bush, and everywhere, the smell of damp soot. This was their path, their shortcut. He folded the map away, and as he straightened from picking up the coat and was slinging it around his shoulders, he saw it. The others, sensing his movement, turned round, and followed his gaze. It was a leg in a tree. A mature plane tree, only just in leaf. The leg was twenty feet up, wedged in the first forking of the trunk, bare, severed cleanly above the knee. From where they stood there was no sign of blood or torn flesh. It was a perfect leg, pale, smooth, small enough to be a child’s. The way it was angled in the fork, it seemed to be on display, for their benefit or enlightenment: this is a leg.
The two corporals made a dismissive sound of disgust and picked up their stuff. They refused to be drawn in. In the past few days they had seen enough.
Nettle, the lorry driver, took out another cigarette and said, “So, which way, guv’nor?”
They called him that to settle the difficult matter of rank. He set off down the path in a hurry, almost at a half run. He wanted to get ahead, out of sight, so that he could throw up, or crap, he didn’t know which. Behind a barn, by a pile of broken slates, his body chose the first option for him. He was so thirsty, he couldn’t afford to lose the fluid. He drank from his canteen, and walked around the barn. He made use of this moment alone to look at his wound. It was on his right side, just below his rib cage, about the size of a half crown. It wasn’t looking so bad after he washed away the dried blood yesterday. Though the skin around it was red, there wasn’t much swelling. But there was something in there. He could feel it move when he walked. A piece of shrapnel perhaps.
By the time the corporals caught up, he had tucked his shirt back in and was pretending to study the map. In their company the map was his only privacy.
“What’s the hurry?”
“He’s seen some crumpet.”
“It’s the map. He’s having his fucking doubts again.”
“No doubts, gentlemen. This is our path.”
He took out a cigarette and Corporal Mace lit it for him. Then, to conceal the trembling in his hands, Robbie Turner walked on, and they followed him, as they had followed him for two days now. Or was it three? He was lower in rank, but they followed and did everything he suggested, and to preserve their dignity, they teased him. When they tramped the roads or cut across the fields and he was silent for too long, Mace would say, “Guv’nor, are you thinking about crumpet again?” And Nettle would chant, “He fucking is, he fucking is.” They were townies who disliked the countryside and were lost in it. The compass points meant nothing to them. That part of basic training had passed them by. They had decided that to reach the coast, they needed him. It was difficult for them. He acted like an officer, but he didn’t even have a single stripe. On the first night, when they were sheltering in the bike shed of a burned-out school, Corporal Nettle said, “What’s a private soldier like you doing talking like a toff?”
He didn’t owe them explanations. He intended to survive, he had one good reason to survive, and he didn’t care whether they tagged along or not. Both men had hung on to their rifles. That was something at least, and Mace was a big man, strong across the shoulders, and with hands that could have spanned one and a half octaves of the pub piano he said he played. Nor did Turner mind about the taunts. All he wanted now as they followed the path away from the road was to forget about the leg. Their path joined a track which ran between two stone walls and dropped down into a valley that had not been visible from the road. At the bottom was a brown stream which they crossed on stepping-stones set deep in a carpet of what looked like miniature water parsley.
Their route swung to the west as they rose out of the valley, still between the ancient walls. Ahead of them the sky was beginning to clear a little and glowed like a promise. Everywhere else was gray. As they approached the top through a copse of chestnut trees, the lowering sun dropped below the cloud cover and caught the scene, dazzling the three soldiers as they rose into it. How fine it might have been, to end a day’s ramble in the French countryside, walking into the setting sun. Always a hopeful act.
As they came out of the copse they heard bombers, so they went back in and smoked while they waited under the trees. From where they were they could not see the planes, but the view was fine. These were hardly hills that spread so expansively before them. They were ripples in the landscape, faint echoes of vast upheavals elsewhere. Each successive ridge was paler than the one before. He saw a receding wash of gray and blue fading in a haze toward the setting sun, like something oriental on a dinner plate.
Half an hour later they were making a long traverse across a deeper slope that edged further to the north and delivered them at last to another valley, another little stream. This one had a more confident flow and they crossed it by a stone bridge thick with cow dung. The corporals, who were not as tired as he was, had a lark, pretending to be revolted. One of them threw a dried lump of dung at his back. Turner did not look round. The scraps of cloth, he was beginning to think, may have been a child’s pajamas. A boy’s. The dive-bombers sometimes came over not long after dawn. He was trying to push it away, but it would not let him go. A French boy asleep in his bed. Turner wanted to put more distance between himself and that bombed cottage. It was not only the German army and air force pursuing him now. If there had been a moon he would have been happy walking all night. The corporals wouldn’t like it. Perhaps it was time to shake them off.
Downstream of the bridge was a line of poplars whose tops fluttered brilliantly in the last of the light. The soldiers turned in the other direction and soon the track was a path again and was leaving the stream. They wound and squeezed their way through bushes with fat shiny leaves. There were also stunted oaks, barely in leaf. The vegetation underfoot smelled sweet and damp, and he thought there must be something wrong with the place to make it so different from anything they had seen.
Ahead of them was the hum of machinery. It grew louder, angrier, and suggested the high-velocity spin of flywheels or electric turbines turning at impossible speed. They were entering a great hall of sound and power.
“Bees!” he called out. He had to turn and say it again before they heard him. The air was already darker. He knew the lore well enough. If one stuck in your hair and stung you, it sent out a chemical message as it died and all who received it were compelled to come and sting and die at the same place. General conscription! After all the danger, this was a kind of insult. They lifted their greatcoats over their heads and ran on through the swarm. Still among the bees, they reached a stinking ditch of slurry which they crossed by a wobbling plank. They came up behind a barn where it was suddenly peaceful. Beyond it was a farmyard. As soon as they were in it, dogs were barking and an old woman was running toward them flapping her hands at them, as though they were hens she could shoo away. The corporals depended on Turner’s French. He went forward and waited for her to reach him. There were stories of civilians selling bottles of water for ten francs, but he had never seen it. The French he had met were generous, or otherwise lost to their own miseries. The woman was frail and energetic. She had a gnarled, man-in-the-moon face and a wild look. Her voice was sharp.
“C’est impossible, M’sieur. Vous ne pouvez pas rester ici.”
“We’ll be staying in the barn. We need water, wine, bread, cheese and anything else you can spare.”
“Impossible!”
He said to her softly, “We’ve been fighting for France.”
“You can’t stay here.”
“We’ll be gone at dawn. The Germans are still . . .”
“It’s not the Germans, M’sieur. It’s my sons. They are animals. And they’ll be back soon.”
Turner pushed past the woman and went to the pump which was in the corner of the yard, near the kitchen. Nettle and Mace followed him. While he drank, a girl of about ten and an infant brother holding her hand watched him from the doorway. When he finished and had filled his canteen he smiled at them and they fled. The corporals were under the pump together, drinking simultaneously. The woman was suddenly behind him, clutching at his elbow. Before she could start again he said, “Please bring us what I asked for or we’ll come in and get it for ourselves.”
“My sons are brutes. They’ll kill me.”
He would have preferred to say, So be it, but instead he walked away and called over his shoulder, “I’ll talk to them.”
“And then, M’sieur, they will kill you. They will tear you to shreds.”
Corporal Mace was a cook in the same RASC unit as Corporal Nettle. Before he joined he was a warehouseman at Heal’s in the Tottenham Court Road. He said he knew a thing or two about comfort, and in the barn he set about arranging their quarters. Turner would have thrown himself down on the straw. Mace found a heap of sacks and with Nettle’s help stuffed them to make up three mattresses. He made headboards out of hay bales which he lifted down with a single hand. He set up a door on brick piles for a table. He took out half a candle from his pocket.
“Might as well be comfy,” he kept saying under his breath. It was the first time they had moved much beyond sexual innuendo. The three men lay on their beds, smoking and waiting. Now they were no longer thirsty their thoughts were on the food they were about to get and they heard each other’s stomachs rumbling and squirting in the gloom, and it made them laugh. Turner told them about his conversation with the old woman and what she had said about her sons.
“Fifth columnists, they would be,” Nettle said. He only looked small alongside his friend, but he had a small man’s sharp features and a friendly, rodent look, heightened by his way of resting the teeth of his upper jaw on his lower lip.
“Or French Nazis. German sympathizers. Like we got Mosley,” Mace said.
They were silent for a while, then Mace added, “Or like they all are in the country, bonkers from marrying too close.”
“Whatever it is,” Turner said, “I think you should check your weapons now and have them handy.”
They did as they were told. Mace lit the candle, and they went through the routines. Turner checked his pistol and put it within reach. When the corporals were finished, they propped the Lee-
Enfields against a wooden crate and lay down on their beds again. Presently the girl came with a basket. She set it down by the barn door and ran away. Nettle fetched the basket and they spread out what they had on their table. A round loaf of brown bread, a small piece of soft cheese, an onion and a bottle of wine. The bread was hard to cut and tasted of mold. The cheese was good, but it was gone in seconds. They passed the bottle around and soon that was gone too. So they chewed on the musty bread and ate the onion.
Nettle said, “I wouldn’t give this to my fucking dog.”
“I’ll go across,” Turner said, “and get something better.”
“We’ll come too.”
But for a while they lay back on their beds in silence. No one felt like confronting the old lady just yet.
Then, at the sound of footsteps, they turned and saw two men standing in the entrance. They each held something in their hands, a club perhaps, or a shotgun. In the fading light it was not possible to tell. Nor could they see the faces of the French brothers.
The voice was soft. “Bonsoir, Messieurs.”
“Bonsoir.”
As Turner got up from his straw bed he took the revolver. The corporals reached for their rifles. “Go easy,” he whispered.
“Anglais? Belges?”
“Anglais.”
“We have something for you.”
“What sort of thing?”
“What’s he saying?” one of the corporals said.
“He says they’ve got something for us.”
“Fucking hell.”
The men came a couple of steps closer and raised what was in their hands. Shotguns, surely. Turner released his safety catch. He heard Mace and Nettle do the same. “Easy,” he murmured.
“Put away your guns, Messieurs.”
“Put away yours.”
“Wait a little moment.”
The figure who spoke was reaching into his pocket. He brought out a torch and shone it not at the soldiers, but at his brother, at what was in his hand. A French loaf. And at what was in the other hand, a canvas bag. Then he showed them the two baguettes he himself was holding.
“And we have olives, cheese, paté, tomatoes and ham. And naturally, wine. Vive l’Angleterre.”
“Er, Vive la France.”
They sat at Mace’s table, which the Frenchmen, Henri and Jean-Marie Bonnet, politely admired, along with the mattresses. They were short, stocky men in their fifties. Henri wore glasses, which Nettle said looked odd on a farmer. Turner did not translate. As well as wine, they brought glass tumblers. The five men raised them in toasts to the French and British armies, and to the crushing of Germany. The brothers watched the soldiers eat. Through Turner, Mace said that he had never tasted, never even heard of, goose liver paté, and from now on, he would eat nothing else. The Frenchmen smiled, but their manner was constrained and they seemed in no mood to get drunk. They said they had driven all the way to a hamlet near Arras in their flatbed farm truck to look for a young cousin and her children. A great battle had been fought for the town but they had no idea who was taking it, who was defending it or who had the upper hand. They drove on the back roads to avoid the chaos of refugees. They saw farmhouses burning, and then they came across a dozen or so dead English soldiers in the road. They had to get out and drag the men aside to avoid running over them. But a couple of the bodies were almost cut in half. It must have been a big machine-gun attack, perhaps from the air, perhaps an ambush. Back in the lorry, Henri was sick in the cab, and Jean-Marie, who was at the wheel, got into a panic and drove into a ditch. They walked to a village, borrowed two horses from a farmer and pulled the Renault free. That took two hours. On the road again, they saw burned-out tanks and armored cars, German as well as British and French. But they saw no soldiers. The battle had moved on.
By the time they reached the hamlet, it was late afternoon. The place had been completely destroyed and was deserted. Their cousin’s house was smashed up, with bullet holes all over the walls, but it still had its roof. They went in every room and were relieved to find no one there. She must have taken the children and joined the thousands of people on the roads. Afraid of driving back at night, they parked in a wood and tried to sleep in the cab. All night long they heard the artillery pounding Arras. It seemed impossible that anyone, or anything, could survive there. They drove back by another route, a much greater distance, to avoid passing the dead soldiers. Now, Henri explained, he and his brother were very tired. When they shut their eyes, they saw those mutilated bodies.
Jean-Marie refilled the glasses. The account, with Turner’s running translation, had taken almost an hour. All the food was eaten. He thought about telling them of his own single, haunting detail. But he didn’t want to add to the horror, and nor did he want to give life to the image while it remained at a distance, held there by wine and companionship. Instead, he told them how he was separated from his unit at the beginning of the retreat, during a Stuka attack. He didn’t mention his injury because he didn’t want the corporals to know about it. Instead he explained how they were walking cross-country to Dunkirk to avoid the air raids along the main roads.
Jean-Marie said, “So it’s true what they’re saying. You’re leaving.”
“We’ll be back.” He said this, but he didn’t believe it.
The wine was taking hold of Corporal Nettle. He began a rambling eulogy of what he called “Frog crumpet”—how plentiful, how available, how delicious. It was all fantasy. The brothers looked at Turner.
“He says French women are the most beautiful in the world.”
They nodded solemnly and raised their glasses.
They were all silent for a while. Their evening was almost at an end. They listened to the night sounds they had grown used to—the rumble of artillery, stray shots in the distance, a booming far-off explosion—probably sappers blowing a bridge in the retreat.
“Ask them about their mum,” Corporal Mace suggested. “Let’s get that one cleared up.”
“We were three brothers,” Henri explained. “The eldest, Paul, her firstborn, died near Verdun in 1915. A direct hit from a shell. There was nothing to bury apart from his helmet. Us two, we were lucky. We came through without a scratch. Since then, she’s always hated soldiers. But now she’s eighty-three and losing her mind, it’s an obsession with her. French, English, Belgian, German. She makes no distinction. You’re all the same to her. We worry that when the Germans come, she’ll go at them with a pitchfork and they’ll shoot her.”
Wearily, the brothers got to their feet. The soldiers did the same.
Jean-Marie said, “We would offer you hospitality at our kitchen table. But to do that, we would have to lock her in her room.”
“But this has been a magnificent feast,” Turner said.
Nettle was whispering in Mace’s ear and he was nodding. Nettle took from his bag two cartons of cigarettes. Of course, it was the right thing to do. The Frenchmen made a polite show of refusing, but Nettle came round the table and shoved the gifts into their arms. He wanted Turner to translate.
“You should have seen it, when the order came through to destroy the stores. Twenty thousand cigarettes. We took whatever we wanted.”
A whole army was fleeing to the coast, armed with cigarettes to keep the hunger away.
The Frenchmen gave courteous thanks, complimented Turner on his French, then bent over the table to pack the empty bottles and glasses into the canvas bag. There was no pretending that they would meet again.
“We’ll be gone at first light,” Turner said. “So we’ll say goodbye.”
They shook hands.
Henri Bonnet said, “All that fighting we did twenty-five years ago. All those dead. Now the Germans back in France. In two days they’ll be here, taking everything we have. Who would have believed it?”
Turner felt, for the first time, the full ignominy of the retreat. He was ashamed. He said, with even less conviction than before, “We’ll be back to throw them out, I promise you.”
The brothers nodded and, with final smiles of farewell, left the dim circle of the candle’s glow and crossed the darkness toward the open barn door, the glasses chinking against the bottles as they went.
Part 1 Chapter 14
HER MEMORIES of the interrogation and signed statements and testimony, or of her awe outside the courtroom from which her youth excluded her, would not trouble her so much in the years to come as her fragmented recollection of that late night and summer dawn. How guilt refined the methods of self-torture, threading the beads of detail into an eternal loop, a rosary to be fingered for a lifetime.
Back in the house at last, there began a dreamlike time of grave arrivals, tears and subdued voices and urgent footsteps across the hallway, and her own vile excitement that kept her drowsiness at bay. Of course, Briony was old enough to know that the moment was entirely Lola’s, but she was soon led away by sympathetic womanly hands to her bedroom to await the doctor and his examination. Briony watched from the foot of the stairs as Lola ascended, sobbing loudly and flanked by Emily and Betty, and followed by Polly who carried a basin and towels. Her cousin’s removal left Briony center stage—there was no sign yet of Robbie—and the way she was listened to, deferred to and gently prompted seemed at one with her new maturity.
It must have been about this time that a Humber stopped outside the house and two police inspectors and two constables were shown in. Briony was their only source, and she made herself speak calmly. Her vital role fueled her certainty. This was in the unstructured time before formal interviews, when she was standing facing the officers in the hallway, with Leon on one side of her and her mother on the other. But how had her mother materialized so quickly from Lola’s bedside? The senior inspector had a heavy face, rich in seams, as though carved from folded granite. Briony was fearful of him as she told her story to this watchful unmoving mask; as she did so she felt a weight lifting from her and a warm submissive feeling spread from her stomach to her limbs. It was like love, a sudden love for this watchful man who stood unquestioningly for the cause of goodness, who came out at all hours to do battle in its name, and who was backed by all the human powers and wisdom that existed. Under his neutral gaze her throat constricted and her voice began to buckle. She wanted the inspector to embrace her and comfort her and forgive her, however guiltless she was. But he would only look at her and listen. It was him. I saw him. Her tears were further proof of the truth she felt and spoke, and when her mother’s hand caressed her nape, she broke down completely and was led toward the drawing room.
But if she was there being consoled by her mother on the Chesterfield, how did she come to remember the arrival of Dr. McLaren in his black waistcoat and his old-fashioned raised shirt collar, carrying the Gladstone bag that had been witness to the three births and all the childhood illnesses of the Tallis household? Leon conferred with the doctor, leaning toward him to murmur a manly summary of events. Where was Leon’s carefree lightness now? This quiet consultation was typical of the hours to come. Each fresh arrival was briefed in this way; people—police, doctor, family members, servants—stood in knots that unraveled and re-formed in corners of rooms, the hallway and the terrace outside the French windows. Nothing was brought together, or formulated in public. Everyone knew the terrible facts of a violation, but it remained everyone’s secret, shared in whispers among shifting groups that broke away self-importantly to new business. Even more serious, potentially, was the matter of the missing children. But the general view, constantly reiterated like a magic spell, was that they were safely asleep somewhere in the park. In this way attention remained mostly fixed on the plight of the girl upstairs.
Paul Marshall came in from searching and learned the news from the inspectors. He walked up and down the terrace with them, one on each side, and on the turn offered them cigarettes from a gold case. When their conversation was over, he patted the senior man on the shoulder and seemed to send them on their way. Then he came inside to confer with Emily Tallis. Leon led the doctor upstairs who descended some while later intangibly enlarged by his professional encounter with the core of all their concerns. He too stood in lengthy conference with the two plainclothesmen, and then with Leon, and finally with Leon and Mrs. Tallis. Not long before his departure, the doctor came and placed his familiar small dry hand on Briony’s forehead, fingered her pulse and was satisfied. He took up his bag, but before he was gone there was a final muttered interview by the front door.
Where was Cecilia? She hovered on the peripheries, speaking to no one, always smoking, raising the cigarette to her lips with a rapid, hungry movement, and pulling it away in agitated disgust. At other times she twisted a handkerchief in her hand as she paced the hallway. Normally, she would have taken control of a situation like this, directing the care of Lola, reassuring her mother, listening to the doctor’s advice, consulting with Leon. Briony was close by when her brother came over to talk to Cecilia, who turned away, unable to help, or even speak. As for their mother, untypically she rose to the crisis, free of migraine and the need to be alone. She actually grew as her older daughter shrank into private misery. There were times when Briony, called on again to give her account, or some detail of it, saw her sister approach within earshot and look on with a smoldering impenetrable gaze. Briony became nervous of her and kept close to her mother’s side. Cecilia’s eyes were bloodshot. While others stood murmuring in groups, she moved restlessly up and down the room, or from one room to another, or, on at least two occasions, went to stand outside the front door. Nervously, she transferred the hankie from one hand to the other, coiled it between her fingers, unwound it, squeezed it in a ball, took it in the other hand, lit another cigarette. When Betty and Polly brought round tea, Cecilia would not touch it.
Word came down that Lola, sedated by the doctor, was at last asleep, and the news provided temporary relief. Unusually, everyone had gathered in the drawing room where tea was taken in exhausted silence. Nobody said it, but they were waiting for Robbie. Also, Mr. Tallis was expected from London at any moment. Leon and Marshall were leaning over a map they were drawing of the grounds for the inspector’s benefit. He took it, studied it and passed it to his assistant. The two constables had been sent out to join those looking for Pierrot and Jackson, and more policemen were supposed to be on their way down to the bungalow in case Robbie had gone there. Like Marshall, Cecilia sat apart, on the harpsichord stool. At one point she rose to get a light from her brother, but it was the chief inspector who obliged her with his own lighter. Briony was next to her mother on the sofa, and Betty and Polly took round the tray. Briony was to have no memory of what suddenly prompted her. An idea of great clarity and persuasiveness came from nowhere, and she did not need to announce her intentions, or ask her sister’s permission. Clinching evidence, cleanly independent of her own version. Verification. Or even another, separate crime. She startled the room with her gasp of inspiration, and almost knocked her mother’s tea from her lap as she stood.
They all watched as she hurried from the room, but no one questioned her, such was the general fatigue. She, on the other hand, was taking the stairs two at a time, energized now by a sense of doing and being good, on the point of springing a surprise that could only earn her praise. It was rather like that Christmas morning sensation of being about to give a present that was bound to cause delight, a joyful feeling of blameless self-love.
She ran along the second-floor corridor to Cecilia’s room. What squalor and disorder her sister lived in! Both wardrobe doors hung wide open. Various dresses were skewed out of their rows and some were half off their hangers. On the floor two dresses, one black, one pink, silky expensive-looking things, lay in a tangle, and round this pile lay kicked-off shoes on their sides. Briony stepped over and around the mess to get to the dressing table. What was the impulse that prevented Cecilia from replacing the caps and lids and screwtops of her makeup and perfumes? Why did she never empty her stinking ashtray? Or make her bed, or open a window to let in the fresh air? The first drawer she tried opened only a couple of inches—it was jammed, crammed full of bottles and a cardboard package. Cecilia might have been ten years older, but there really was something quite hopeless and helpless about her. Even though Briony was fearful of the wild look her sister had downstairs, it was right, the younger girl thought as she pulled open another drawer, that she was there for her, thinking clearly, on her behalf.
Five minutes later, when she reentered the drawing room in triumph, no one paid her any attention, and everything was exactly the same—tired, miserable adults sipping tea and smoking in silence. In her excitement she had not considered who it was she should give the letter to; a trick of her imagination had everyone reading it at once. She decided Leon should have it. She crossed the room toward her brother, but when she arrived in front of the three men she changed her mind and put the folded sheet of paper into the hands of the policeman with the face of granite. If he had an expression, it did not change as he took the letter nor when he read it, which he did at great speed, almost at a glance. His eyes met hers, then shifted to take in Cecilia who was facing away. With the slightest movement of his wrist he indicated that the other policeman should take the letter. When he was finished it was passed on to Leon who read it, folded it and returned it to the senior inspector. Briony was impressed by the muted response—such was the three men’s worldliness. It was only now that Emily Tallis became aware of the focus of their interest. In answer to her unemphatic query Leon said, “It’s just a letter.”
“I’ll read it.”
For the second time that evening Emily was obliged to assert her rights over written messages passing through her household. Feeling that nothing more was required of her, Briony went to sit on the Chesterfield and watched from her mother’s perspective the chivalrous unease that shifted between Leon and the policemen.
“I’ll read it.”
Ominously, she did not vary her tone. Leon shrugged and forced an apologetic smile—what possible objection could he have?—and Emily’s mild gaze settled on the two inspectors. She belonged to a generation that treated policemen as menials, whatever their rank. Obedient to the nod from his superior, the younger inspector crossed the room and presented the letter to her. At last Cecilia, who must have been a long way off in her thoughts, was taking an interest. Then the letter lay exposed on her mother’s lap, and Cecilia was on her feet, then moving toward them from the harpsichord stool.
“How dare you! How dare you all!”
Leon stood too and made a calming gesture with his palms. “Cee . . .”
When she made a lunge to snatch the letter from her mother, she found not only her brother but the two policemen in her way. Marshall was standing too, but not interfering.
“It belongs to me,” she shouted. “You have absolutely no right!”
Emily did not even look up from her reading, and she gave herself time to read the letter several times over. When she was done she met her daughter’s fury with her own colder version.
“If you had done the right thing, young lady, with all your education, and come to me with this, then something could have been done in time and your cousin would have been spared her nightmare.”
For a moment Cecilia stood alone in the center of the room, fluttering the fingers of her right hand, staring at them each in turn, unable to believe her association with such people, unable to begin to tell them what she knew. And though Briony felt vindicated by the reaction of the adults, and was experiencing the onset of a sweet and inward rapture, she was also pleased to be down on the sofa with her mother, partially screened by the standing men from her sister’s red-eyed contempt. She held them in its grip for several seconds before she turned and walked out of the room. As she went across the hallway she gave out a cry of sheer vexation which was amplified by the raw acoustic of the bare floor tiles. In the drawing room there was a sense of relief, of relaxation almost, as they heard her go up the stairs. When Briony next remembered to look, the letter was in Marshall’s hands and he was passing it back to the inspector who placed it unfolded into a binder which the younger policeman was holding open for him.
The hours of the night spun away from her and she remained untired. It occurred to no one to send her to her bed. Some immeasurable time after Cecilia had gone to her room, Briony went with her mother to the library to have the first of her formal interviews with the police. Mrs. Tallis remained standing, while Briony sat on one side of the writing desk and the inspectors sat on the other. The one with the face of ancient rock, who was the one who asked the questions, turned out to be infinitely kind, speaking his unhurried questions in a gruff voice that was both gentle and sad. Since she was able to show them the precise location of Robbie’s attack on Cecilia, they all wandered into that corner of the bookshelves to take a closer look. Briony wedged herself in, with her back to the books to show them how her sister was positioned, and saw the first mid-blue touches of dawn in the panes of the library’s high windows. She stepped out and turned around to demonstrate the attacker’s stance and showed where she herself had stood.
Emily said, “But why didn’t you tell me?”
The policemen looked at Briony and waited. It was a good question, but it would never have occurred to her to trouble her mother. Nothing but a migraine would have come of it.
“We were called into dinner, then the twins ran off.”
She explained how she came by the letter, on the bridge at dusk. What led her to open it? Difficult to describe the impulsive moment, when she had not permitted herself to think of the consequences before acting, or how the writer she had only that day become needed to know, to understand everything that came her way.
She said, “I don’t know. I was being horribly nosy. I hated myself.”
It was about this time that a constable put his head round the door to give news that seemed at one with the calamity of the night. Mr. Tallis’s driver had rung from a phone box near Croydon Airport. The departmental car, made available at short notice through the kindness of the minister, had broken down in the suburbs. Jack Tallis was asleep under a rug on the backseat and would probably have to continue by the first morning train. Once these facts had been absorbed and lamented, Briony was gently returned to the scene itself, to the events on the lake island. At this early stage, the inspector was careful not to oppress the young girl with probing questions, and within this sensitively created space she was able to build and shape her narrative in her own words and establish the key facts: there was just sufficient light for her to recognize a familiar face; when he shrank away from her and circled the clearing, his movements and height were familiar to her as well.
“You saw him then.”
“I know it was him.”
“Let’s forget what you know. You’re saying you saw him.”
“Yes, I saw him.”
“Just as you see me.”
“Yes.”
“You saw him with your own eyes.”
“Yes. I saw him. I saw him.”
Thus her first formal interview concluded. While she sat in the drawing room, feeling her tiredness at last, but unwilling to go to bed, her mother was questioned, then Leon and Paul Marshall. Old Hardman and his son Danny were brought in for interview. Briony heard Betty say that Danny was at home all evening with his father who was able to vouch for him. Various constables came to the front door from searching for the twins and were shown through to the kitchen. In the confused and unmemorable time of that early dawn, Briony gathered that Cecilia was refusing to leave her room, refusing to come down to be interviewed. In the days to come she would be given no choice and when she finally yielded up her own account of what happened in the library—in its way, far more shocking than Briony’s, however consensual the encounter had been—it merely confirmed the general view that had formed: Mr. Turner was a dangerous man. Cecilia’s repeated suggestion that it was Danny Hardman they should be talking to was heard in silence. It was understandable, though poor form, that this young woman should be covering for her friend by casting suspicion on an innocent boy.
Sometime after five, when there was talk of breakfast being prepared, at least for the constables, for no one else was hungry, the word flashed through the household that a figure who might be Robbie was approaching across the park. Perhaps someone had been watching from an upstairs window. Briony did not know how the decision was made that they should all go outside to wait for him. Suddenly, they were all there, family, Paul Marshall, Betty and her helpers, the policemen, a reception party grouped tightly around the front entrance. Only Lola in a drugged coma and Cecilia with her fury remained upstairs. It might have been that Mrs. Tallis did not want the polluting presence to step inside her house. The inspector may have feared violence which was more easily dealt with outdoors where there was more space to make an arrest. All the magic of dawn had gone now, and in its place was a gray early morning, distinguished only by a summer’s mist which was sure to burn off soon.
At first they saw nothing, though Briony thought she could make out the tread of shoes along the drive. Then everyone could hear it, and there was a collective murmur and shifting of weight as they caught sight of an indefinable shape, no more than a grayish smudge against the white, almost a hundred yards away. As the shape took form the waiting group fell silent again. No one could quite believe what was emerging. Surely it was a trick of the mist and light. No one in this age of telephones and motorcars could believe that giants seven or eight feet high existed in crowded Surrey. But here it was, an apparition as inhuman as it was purposeful. The thing was impossible and undeniable, and heading their way. Betty, who was known to be a Catholic, crossed herself as the little crowd huddled closer to the entrance. Only the senior inspector took a couple of paces forward, and as he did so everything became clear. The clue was a second, tiny shape that bobbed alongside the first. Then it was obvious—this was Robbie, with one boy sitting up on his shoulders and the other holding his hand and trailing a little behind. When he was less than thirty feet away, Robbie stopped, and seemed about to speak, but waited instead as the inspector and the other policemen approached. The boy on his shoulders appeared to be asleep. The other boy let his head loll against Robbie’s waist and drew the man’s hand across his chest for protection or warmth.
Briony’s immediate feeling was one of relief that the boys were safe. But as she looked at Robbie waiting calmly, she experienced a flash of outrage. Did he believe he could conceal his crime behind an apparent kindness, behind this show of being the good shepherd? This was surely a cynical attempt to win forgiveness for what could never be forgiven. She was confirmed again in her view that evil was complicated and misleading. Suddenly, her mother’s hands were pressing firmly on her shoulders and turning her toward the house, delivering her into Betty’s care. Emily wanted her daughter well away from Robbie Turner. It was bedtime at last. Betty took a firm grip of her hand and was leading her in as her mother and brother went forward to collect the twins. Briony’s last glimpse back over her shoulder as she was pulled away showed her Robbie raising two hands, as though in surrender. He lifted the boy clear of his head and placed him gently on the ground.
An hour later she was lying on her canopy bed in the clean white cotton nightdress which Betty had found for her. The curtains were drawn, but the daylight gleam around their edges was strong, and for all her spinning sensations of tiredness, she could not sleep. Voices and images were ranged around her bedside, agitated, nagging presences, jostling and merging, resisting her attempts to set them in order. Were they all really bounded by a single day, by one period of unbroken wakefulness, from the innocent rehearsals of her play to the emergence of the giant from the mist? All that lay between was too clamorous, too fluid to understand, though she sensed she had succeeded, even triumphed. She kicked the sheet clear of her legs and turned the pillow to find a cooler patch for her cheeks. In her dizzy state she was not able to say exactly what her success had been; if it was to have gained a new maturity, she could hardly feel it now when she was so helpless, so childish even, through lack of sleep, to the point where she thought she could easily make herself cry. If it was brave to have identified a thoroughly bad person, then it was wrong of him to turn up with the twins like that, and she felt cheated. Who would believe her now, with Robbie posing as the kindly rescuer of lost children? All her work, all her courage and clearheadedness, all she had done to bring Lola home—for nothing. They would turn their backs on her, her mother, the policemen, her brother, and go off with Robbie Turner to indulge some adult cabal. She wanted her mother, she wanted to put her arms round her mother’s neck and pull her lovely face close to hers, but her mother wouldn’t come now, no one would come to Briony, no one would talk to her now. She turned her face into the pillow and let her tears drain into it, and felt that yet more was lost, when there was no witness to her sorrow.
She had been lying in the semidarkness nursing this palatable sadness for half an hour when she heard the sound of the police car parked below her window starting up. It rolled across the gravel, then stopped. There were voices and the crunch of several footsteps. She got up and parted the curtains. The mist was still there, but it was brighter, as though illuminated from within, and she half closed her eyes while they adjusted to the glare. All four doors of the police Humber were wide open, and three constables were waiting by it. The voices came from a group directly below her, by the front door, just out of sight. Then came the sound of footsteps again, and they emerged, the two inspectors, with Robbie between them. And handcuffed! She saw how his arms were forced in front of him, and from her vantage point she saw the silver glint of steel below his shirt cuff. The disgrace of it horrified her. It was further confirmation of his guilt, and the beginning of his punishment. It had the look of eternal damnation.
They reached the car and stopped. Robbie half turned, but she could not read his expression. He stood erect, several inches higher than the inspector, with his head lifted up. Perhaps he was proud of what he had done. One of the constables got in the driver’s seat. The junior inspector was walking round to the rear door on the far side and his chief was about to guide Robbie into the backseat. There was the sound of a commotion directly below Briony’s window, and of Emily Tallis’s voice calling sharply, and suddenly a figure was running toward the car as fast as was possible in a tight dress. Cecilia slowed as she approached. Robbie turned and took half a pace toward her and, surprisingly, the inspector stepped back. The handcuffs were in full view, but Robbie did not appear ashamed or even aware of them as he faced Cecilia and listened gravely to what she was saying. The impassive policemen looked on. If she was delivering the bitter indictment Robbie deserved to hear, it did not show on his face. Though Cecilia was facing away from her, Briony thought she was speaking with very little animation. Her accusations would be all the more powerful for being muttered. They had moved closer, and now Robbie spoke briefly, and half raised his locked hands and let them fall. She touched them with her own, and fingered his lapel, and then gripped it and shook it gently. It seemed a kindly gesture and Briony was touched by her sister’s capacity for forgiveness, if this was what it was. Forgiveness. The word had never meant a thing before, though Briony had heard it exulted at a thousand school and church occasions. And all the time, her sister had understood. There was, of course, much that she did not know about Cecilia. But there would be time, for this tragedy was bound to bring them closer.
The kindly inspector with the granite face must have thought he had been indulgent enough, for he stepped forward to brush away Cecilia’s hand and interpose himself. Robbie said something to her quickly over the officer’s shoulder, and turned toward the car. Considerately, the inspector raised his own hand to Robbie’s head and pressed down hard on it, so that he did not bang it as he stooped to climb into the backseat. The two inspectors wedged themselves on each side of their prisoner. The doors slammed, and the one constable left behind touched his helmet in salute as the car moved forward. Cecilia remained where she was, facing down the drive, tranquilly watching the car as it receded, but the tremors along the line of her shoulders confided she was crying, and Briony knew she had never loved her sister more than now.
It should have ended there, this seamless day that had wrapped itself around a summer’s night, it should have concluded then with the Humber disappearing down the drive. But there remained a final confrontation. The car had gone no more than twenty yards when it began to slow. A figure Briony had not noticed was coming down the center of the drive and showed no intention of standing to one side. It was a woman, rather short, with a rolling walk, wearing a floral print dress and gripping what looked at first like a stick but was in fact a man’s umbrella with a goose’s head. The car stopped and the horn sounded as the woman came up and stood right against the radiator grille. It was Robbie’s mother, Grace Turner. She raised the umbrella and shouted. The policeman in the front passenger seat had got out and was speaking to her, and then took her by the elbow. The other constable, the one who had saluted, was hurrying over. Mrs. Turner shook her arm free, raised the umbrella again, this time with two hands, and brought it down, goose head first, with a crack like a pistol shot, onto the Humber’s shiny bonnet. As the constables half pushed, half carried her to the edge of the drive, she began to shout a single word so loudly that Briony could hear it from her bedroom.
“Liars! Liars! Liars!” Mrs. Turner roared.
With its front door wide open, the car moved past her slowly and stopped to let the policeman get back in. On his own, his colleague was having difficulty restraining her. She managed another swipe with her umbrella but the blow glanced off the car’s roof. He wrestled the umbrella from her and tossed it over his shoulder onto the grass.
“Liars! Liars!” Grace Turner shouted again, and took a few hopeless steps after the retreating car, and then stopped, hands on hips, to watch as it went over the first bridge, crossed the island and then the second bridge, and finally vanished into the whiteness.
Back in the house at last, there began a dreamlike time of grave arrivals, tears and subdued voices and urgent footsteps across the hallway, and her own vile excitement that kept her drowsiness at bay. Of course, Briony was old enough to know that the moment was entirely Lola’s, but she was soon led away by sympathetic womanly hands to her bedroom to await the doctor and his examination. Briony watched from the foot of the stairs as Lola ascended, sobbing loudly and flanked by Emily and Betty, and followed by Polly who carried a basin and towels. Her cousin’s removal left Briony center stage—there was no sign yet of Robbie—and the way she was listened to, deferred to and gently prompted seemed at one with her new maturity.
It must have been about this time that a Humber stopped outside the house and two police inspectors and two constables were shown in. Briony was their only source, and she made herself speak calmly. Her vital role fueled her certainty. This was in the unstructured time before formal interviews, when she was standing facing the officers in the hallway, with Leon on one side of her and her mother on the other. But how had her mother materialized so quickly from Lola’s bedside? The senior inspector had a heavy face, rich in seams, as though carved from folded granite. Briony was fearful of him as she told her story to this watchful unmoving mask; as she did so she felt a weight lifting from her and a warm submissive feeling spread from her stomach to her limbs. It was like love, a sudden love for this watchful man who stood unquestioningly for the cause of goodness, who came out at all hours to do battle in its name, and who was backed by all the human powers and wisdom that existed. Under his neutral gaze her throat constricted and her voice began to buckle. She wanted the inspector to embrace her and comfort her and forgive her, however guiltless she was. But he would only look at her and listen. It was him. I saw him. Her tears were further proof of the truth she felt and spoke, and when her mother’s hand caressed her nape, she broke down completely and was led toward the drawing room.
But if she was there being consoled by her mother on the Chesterfield, how did she come to remember the arrival of Dr. McLaren in his black waistcoat and his old-fashioned raised shirt collar, carrying the Gladstone bag that had been witness to the three births and all the childhood illnesses of the Tallis household? Leon conferred with the doctor, leaning toward him to murmur a manly summary of events. Where was Leon’s carefree lightness now? This quiet consultation was typical of the hours to come. Each fresh arrival was briefed in this way; people—police, doctor, family members, servants—stood in knots that unraveled and re-formed in corners of rooms, the hallway and the terrace outside the French windows. Nothing was brought together, or formulated in public. Everyone knew the terrible facts of a violation, but it remained everyone’s secret, shared in whispers among shifting groups that broke away self-importantly to new business. Even more serious, potentially, was the matter of the missing children. But the general view, constantly reiterated like a magic spell, was that they were safely asleep somewhere in the park. In this way attention remained mostly fixed on the plight of the girl upstairs.
Paul Marshall came in from searching and learned the news from the inspectors. He walked up and down the terrace with them, one on each side, and on the turn offered them cigarettes from a gold case. When their conversation was over, he patted the senior man on the shoulder and seemed to send them on their way. Then he came inside to confer with Emily Tallis. Leon led the doctor upstairs who descended some while later intangibly enlarged by his professional encounter with the core of all their concerns. He too stood in lengthy conference with the two plainclothesmen, and then with Leon, and finally with Leon and Mrs. Tallis. Not long before his departure, the doctor came and placed his familiar small dry hand on Briony’s forehead, fingered her pulse and was satisfied. He took up his bag, but before he was gone there was a final muttered interview by the front door.
Where was Cecilia? She hovered on the peripheries, speaking to no one, always smoking, raising the cigarette to her lips with a rapid, hungry movement, and pulling it away in agitated disgust. At other times she twisted a handkerchief in her hand as she paced the hallway. Normally, she would have taken control of a situation like this, directing the care of Lola, reassuring her mother, listening to the doctor’s advice, consulting with Leon. Briony was close by when her brother came over to talk to Cecilia, who turned away, unable to help, or even speak. As for their mother, untypically she rose to the crisis, free of migraine and the need to be alone. She actually grew as her older daughter shrank into private misery. There were times when Briony, called on again to give her account, or some detail of it, saw her sister approach within earshot and look on with a smoldering impenetrable gaze. Briony became nervous of her and kept close to her mother’s side. Cecilia’s eyes were bloodshot. While others stood murmuring in groups, she moved restlessly up and down the room, or from one room to another, or, on at least two occasions, went to stand outside the front door. Nervously, she transferred the hankie from one hand to the other, coiled it between her fingers, unwound it, squeezed it in a ball, took it in the other hand, lit another cigarette. When Betty and Polly brought round tea, Cecilia would not touch it.
Word came down that Lola, sedated by the doctor, was at last asleep, and the news provided temporary relief. Unusually, everyone had gathered in the drawing room where tea was taken in exhausted silence. Nobody said it, but they were waiting for Robbie. Also, Mr. Tallis was expected from London at any moment. Leon and Marshall were leaning over a map they were drawing of the grounds for the inspector’s benefit. He took it, studied it and passed it to his assistant. The two constables had been sent out to join those looking for Pierrot and Jackson, and more policemen were supposed to be on their way down to the bungalow in case Robbie had gone there. Like Marshall, Cecilia sat apart, on the harpsichord stool. At one point she rose to get a light from her brother, but it was the chief inspector who obliged her with his own lighter. Briony was next to her mother on the sofa, and Betty and Polly took round the tray. Briony was to have no memory of what suddenly prompted her. An idea of great clarity and persuasiveness came from nowhere, and she did not need to announce her intentions, or ask her sister’s permission. Clinching evidence, cleanly independent of her own version. Verification. Or even another, separate crime. She startled the room with her gasp of inspiration, and almost knocked her mother’s tea from her lap as she stood.
They all watched as she hurried from the room, but no one questioned her, such was the general fatigue. She, on the other hand, was taking the stairs two at a time, energized now by a sense of doing and being good, on the point of springing a surprise that could only earn her praise. It was rather like that Christmas morning sensation of being about to give a present that was bound to cause delight, a joyful feeling of blameless self-love.
She ran along the second-floor corridor to Cecilia’s room. What squalor and disorder her sister lived in! Both wardrobe doors hung wide open. Various dresses were skewed out of their rows and some were half off their hangers. On the floor two dresses, one black, one pink, silky expensive-looking things, lay in a tangle, and round this pile lay kicked-off shoes on their sides. Briony stepped over and around the mess to get to the dressing table. What was the impulse that prevented Cecilia from replacing the caps and lids and screwtops of her makeup and perfumes? Why did she never empty her stinking ashtray? Or make her bed, or open a window to let in the fresh air? The first drawer she tried opened only a couple of inches—it was jammed, crammed full of bottles and a cardboard package. Cecilia might have been ten years older, but there really was something quite hopeless and helpless about her. Even though Briony was fearful of the wild look her sister had downstairs, it was right, the younger girl thought as she pulled open another drawer, that she was there for her, thinking clearly, on her behalf.
Five minutes later, when she reentered the drawing room in triumph, no one paid her any attention, and everything was exactly the same—tired, miserable adults sipping tea and smoking in silence. In her excitement she had not considered who it was she should give the letter to; a trick of her imagination had everyone reading it at once. She decided Leon should have it. She crossed the room toward her brother, but when she arrived in front of the three men she changed her mind and put the folded sheet of paper into the hands of the policeman with the face of granite. If he had an expression, it did not change as he took the letter nor when he read it, which he did at great speed, almost at a glance. His eyes met hers, then shifted to take in Cecilia who was facing away. With the slightest movement of his wrist he indicated that the other policeman should take the letter. When he was finished it was passed on to Leon who read it, folded it and returned it to the senior inspector. Briony was impressed by the muted response—such was the three men’s worldliness. It was only now that Emily Tallis became aware of the focus of their interest. In answer to her unemphatic query Leon said, “It’s just a letter.”
“I’ll read it.”
For the second time that evening Emily was obliged to assert her rights over written messages passing through her household. Feeling that nothing more was required of her, Briony went to sit on the Chesterfield and watched from her mother’s perspective the chivalrous unease that shifted between Leon and the policemen.
“I’ll read it.”
Ominously, she did not vary her tone. Leon shrugged and forced an apologetic smile—what possible objection could he have?—and Emily’s mild gaze settled on the two inspectors. She belonged to a generation that treated policemen as menials, whatever their rank. Obedient to the nod from his superior, the younger inspector crossed the room and presented the letter to her. At last Cecilia, who must have been a long way off in her thoughts, was taking an interest. Then the letter lay exposed on her mother’s lap, and Cecilia was on her feet, then moving toward them from the harpsichord stool.
“How dare you! How dare you all!”
Leon stood too and made a calming gesture with his palms. “Cee . . .”
When she made a lunge to snatch the letter from her mother, she found not only her brother but the two policemen in her way. Marshall was standing too, but not interfering.
“It belongs to me,” she shouted. “You have absolutely no right!”
Emily did not even look up from her reading, and she gave herself time to read the letter several times over. When she was done she met her daughter’s fury with her own colder version.
“If you had done the right thing, young lady, with all your education, and come to me with this, then something could have been done in time and your cousin would have been spared her nightmare.”
For a moment Cecilia stood alone in the center of the room, fluttering the fingers of her right hand, staring at them each in turn, unable to believe her association with such people, unable to begin to tell them what she knew. And though Briony felt vindicated by the reaction of the adults, and was experiencing the onset of a sweet and inward rapture, she was also pleased to be down on the sofa with her mother, partially screened by the standing men from her sister’s red-eyed contempt. She held them in its grip for several seconds before she turned and walked out of the room. As she went across the hallway she gave out a cry of sheer vexation which was amplified by the raw acoustic of the bare floor tiles. In the drawing room there was a sense of relief, of relaxation almost, as they heard her go up the stairs. When Briony next remembered to look, the letter was in Marshall’s hands and he was passing it back to the inspector who placed it unfolded into a binder which the younger policeman was holding open for him.
The hours of the night spun away from her and she remained untired. It occurred to no one to send her to her bed. Some immeasurable time after Cecilia had gone to her room, Briony went with her mother to the library to have the first of her formal interviews with the police. Mrs. Tallis remained standing, while Briony sat on one side of the writing desk and the inspectors sat on the other. The one with the face of ancient rock, who was the one who asked the questions, turned out to be infinitely kind, speaking his unhurried questions in a gruff voice that was both gentle and sad. Since she was able to show them the precise location of Robbie’s attack on Cecilia, they all wandered into that corner of the bookshelves to take a closer look. Briony wedged herself in, with her back to the books to show them how her sister was positioned, and saw the first mid-blue touches of dawn in the panes of the library’s high windows. She stepped out and turned around to demonstrate the attacker’s stance and showed where she herself had stood.
Emily said, “But why didn’t you tell me?”
The policemen looked at Briony and waited. It was a good question, but it would never have occurred to her to trouble her mother. Nothing but a migraine would have come of it.
“We were called into dinner, then the twins ran off.”
She explained how she came by the letter, on the bridge at dusk. What led her to open it? Difficult to describe the impulsive moment, when she had not permitted herself to think of the consequences before acting, or how the writer she had only that day become needed to know, to understand everything that came her way.
She said, “I don’t know. I was being horribly nosy. I hated myself.”
It was about this time that a constable put his head round the door to give news that seemed at one with the calamity of the night. Mr. Tallis’s driver had rung from a phone box near Croydon Airport. The departmental car, made available at short notice through the kindness of the minister, had broken down in the suburbs. Jack Tallis was asleep under a rug on the backseat and would probably have to continue by the first morning train. Once these facts had been absorbed and lamented, Briony was gently returned to the scene itself, to the events on the lake island. At this early stage, the inspector was careful not to oppress the young girl with probing questions, and within this sensitively created space she was able to build and shape her narrative in her own words and establish the key facts: there was just sufficient light for her to recognize a familiar face; when he shrank away from her and circled the clearing, his movements and height were familiar to her as well.
“You saw him then.”
“I know it was him.”
“Let’s forget what you know. You’re saying you saw him.”
“Yes, I saw him.”
“Just as you see me.”
“Yes.”
“You saw him with your own eyes.”
“Yes. I saw him. I saw him.”
Thus her first formal interview concluded. While she sat in the drawing room, feeling her tiredness at last, but unwilling to go to bed, her mother was questioned, then Leon and Paul Marshall. Old Hardman and his son Danny were brought in for interview. Briony heard Betty say that Danny was at home all evening with his father who was able to vouch for him. Various constables came to the front door from searching for the twins and were shown through to the kitchen. In the confused and unmemorable time of that early dawn, Briony gathered that Cecilia was refusing to leave her room, refusing to come down to be interviewed. In the days to come she would be given no choice and when she finally yielded up her own account of what happened in the library—in its way, far more shocking than Briony’s, however consensual the encounter had been—it merely confirmed the general view that had formed: Mr. Turner was a dangerous man. Cecilia’s repeated suggestion that it was Danny Hardman they should be talking to was heard in silence. It was understandable, though poor form, that this young woman should be covering for her friend by casting suspicion on an innocent boy.
Sometime after five, when there was talk of breakfast being prepared, at least for the constables, for no one else was hungry, the word flashed through the household that a figure who might be Robbie was approaching across the park. Perhaps someone had been watching from an upstairs window. Briony did not know how the decision was made that they should all go outside to wait for him. Suddenly, they were all there, family, Paul Marshall, Betty and her helpers, the policemen, a reception party grouped tightly around the front entrance. Only Lola in a drugged coma and Cecilia with her fury remained upstairs. It might have been that Mrs. Tallis did not want the polluting presence to step inside her house. The inspector may have feared violence which was more easily dealt with outdoors where there was more space to make an arrest. All the magic of dawn had gone now, and in its place was a gray early morning, distinguished only by a summer’s mist which was sure to burn off soon.
At first they saw nothing, though Briony thought she could make out the tread of shoes along the drive. Then everyone could hear it, and there was a collective murmur and shifting of weight as they caught sight of an indefinable shape, no more than a grayish smudge against the white, almost a hundred yards away. As the shape took form the waiting group fell silent again. No one could quite believe what was emerging. Surely it was a trick of the mist and light. No one in this age of telephones and motorcars could believe that giants seven or eight feet high existed in crowded Surrey. But here it was, an apparition as inhuman as it was purposeful. The thing was impossible and undeniable, and heading their way. Betty, who was known to be a Catholic, crossed herself as the little crowd huddled closer to the entrance. Only the senior inspector took a couple of paces forward, and as he did so everything became clear. The clue was a second, tiny shape that bobbed alongside the first. Then it was obvious—this was Robbie, with one boy sitting up on his shoulders and the other holding his hand and trailing a little behind. When he was less than thirty feet away, Robbie stopped, and seemed about to speak, but waited instead as the inspector and the other policemen approached. The boy on his shoulders appeared to be asleep. The other boy let his head loll against Robbie’s waist and drew the man’s hand across his chest for protection or warmth.
Briony’s immediate feeling was one of relief that the boys were safe. But as she looked at Robbie waiting calmly, she experienced a flash of outrage. Did he believe he could conceal his crime behind an apparent kindness, behind this show of being the good shepherd? This was surely a cynical attempt to win forgiveness for what could never be forgiven. She was confirmed again in her view that evil was complicated and misleading. Suddenly, her mother’s hands were pressing firmly on her shoulders and turning her toward the house, delivering her into Betty’s care. Emily wanted her daughter well away from Robbie Turner. It was bedtime at last. Betty took a firm grip of her hand and was leading her in as her mother and brother went forward to collect the twins. Briony’s last glimpse back over her shoulder as she was pulled away showed her Robbie raising two hands, as though in surrender. He lifted the boy clear of his head and placed him gently on the ground.
An hour later she was lying on her canopy bed in the clean white cotton nightdress which Betty had found for her. The curtains were drawn, but the daylight gleam around their edges was strong, and for all her spinning sensations of tiredness, she could not sleep. Voices and images were ranged around her bedside, agitated, nagging presences, jostling and merging, resisting her attempts to set them in order. Were they all really bounded by a single day, by one period of unbroken wakefulness, from the innocent rehearsals of her play to the emergence of the giant from the mist? All that lay between was too clamorous, too fluid to understand, though she sensed she had succeeded, even triumphed. She kicked the sheet clear of her legs and turned the pillow to find a cooler patch for her cheeks. In her dizzy state she was not able to say exactly what her success had been; if it was to have gained a new maturity, she could hardly feel it now when she was so helpless, so childish even, through lack of sleep, to the point where she thought she could easily make herself cry. If it was brave to have identified a thoroughly bad person, then it was wrong of him to turn up with the twins like that, and she felt cheated. Who would believe her now, with Robbie posing as the kindly rescuer of lost children? All her work, all her courage and clearheadedness, all she had done to bring Lola home—for nothing. They would turn their backs on her, her mother, the policemen, her brother, and go off with Robbie Turner to indulge some adult cabal. She wanted her mother, she wanted to put her arms round her mother’s neck and pull her lovely face close to hers, but her mother wouldn’t come now, no one would come to Briony, no one would talk to her now. She turned her face into the pillow and let her tears drain into it, and felt that yet more was lost, when there was no witness to her sorrow.
She had been lying in the semidarkness nursing this palatable sadness for half an hour when she heard the sound of the police car parked below her window starting up. It rolled across the gravel, then stopped. There were voices and the crunch of several footsteps. She got up and parted the curtains. The mist was still there, but it was brighter, as though illuminated from within, and she half closed her eyes while they adjusted to the glare. All four doors of the police Humber were wide open, and three constables were waiting by it. The voices came from a group directly below her, by the front door, just out of sight. Then came the sound of footsteps again, and they emerged, the two inspectors, with Robbie between them. And handcuffed! She saw how his arms were forced in front of him, and from her vantage point she saw the silver glint of steel below his shirt cuff. The disgrace of it horrified her. It was further confirmation of his guilt, and the beginning of his punishment. It had the look of eternal damnation.
They reached the car and stopped. Robbie half turned, but she could not read his expression. He stood erect, several inches higher than the inspector, with his head lifted up. Perhaps he was proud of what he had done. One of the constables got in the driver’s seat. The junior inspector was walking round to the rear door on the far side and his chief was about to guide Robbie into the backseat. There was the sound of a commotion directly below Briony’s window, and of Emily Tallis’s voice calling sharply, and suddenly a figure was running toward the car as fast as was possible in a tight dress. Cecilia slowed as she approached. Robbie turned and took half a pace toward her and, surprisingly, the inspector stepped back. The handcuffs were in full view, but Robbie did not appear ashamed or even aware of them as he faced Cecilia and listened gravely to what she was saying. The impassive policemen looked on. If she was delivering the bitter indictment Robbie deserved to hear, it did not show on his face. Though Cecilia was facing away from her, Briony thought she was speaking with very little animation. Her accusations would be all the more powerful for being muttered. They had moved closer, and now Robbie spoke briefly, and half raised his locked hands and let them fall. She touched them with her own, and fingered his lapel, and then gripped it and shook it gently. It seemed a kindly gesture and Briony was touched by her sister’s capacity for forgiveness, if this was what it was. Forgiveness. The word had never meant a thing before, though Briony had heard it exulted at a thousand school and church occasions. And all the time, her sister had understood. There was, of course, much that she did not know about Cecilia. But there would be time, for this tragedy was bound to bring them closer.
The kindly inspector with the granite face must have thought he had been indulgent enough, for he stepped forward to brush away Cecilia’s hand and interpose himself. Robbie said something to her quickly over the officer’s shoulder, and turned toward the car. Considerately, the inspector raised his own hand to Robbie’s head and pressed down hard on it, so that he did not bang it as he stooped to climb into the backseat. The two inspectors wedged themselves on each side of their prisoner. The doors slammed, and the one constable left behind touched his helmet in salute as the car moved forward. Cecilia remained where she was, facing down the drive, tranquilly watching the car as it receded, but the tremors along the line of her shoulders confided she was crying, and Briony knew she had never loved her sister more than now.
It should have ended there, this seamless day that had wrapped itself around a summer’s night, it should have concluded then with the Humber disappearing down the drive. But there remained a final confrontation. The car had gone no more than twenty yards when it began to slow. A figure Briony had not noticed was coming down the center of the drive and showed no intention of standing to one side. It was a woman, rather short, with a rolling walk, wearing a floral print dress and gripping what looked at first like a stick but was in fact a man’s umbrella with a goose’s head. The car stopped and the horn sounded as the woman came up and stood right against the radiator grille. It was Robbie’s mother, Grace Turner. She raised the umbrella and shouted. The policeman in the front passenger seat had got out and was speaking to her, and then took her by the elbow. The other constable, the one who had saluted, was hurrying over. Mrs. Turner shook her arm free, raised the umbrella again, this time with two hands, and brought it down, goose head first, with a crack like a pistol shot, onto the Humber’s shiny bonnet. As the constables half pushed, half carried her to the edge of the drive, she began to shout a single word so loudly that Briony could hear it from her bedroom.
“Liars! Liars! Liars!” Mrs. Turner roared.
With its front door wide open, the car moved past her slowly and stopped to let the policeman get back in. On his own, his colleague was having difficulty restraining her. She managed another swipe with her umbrella but the blow glanced off the car’s roof. He wrestled the umbrella from her and tossed it over his shoulder onto the grass.
“Liars! Liars!” Grace Turner shouted again, and took a few hopeless steps after the retreating car, and then stopped, hands on hips, to watch as it went over the first bridge, crossed the island and then the second bridge, and finally vanished into the whiteness.
Part 1 Chapter 13
WITHIN THE half hour Briony would commit her crime. Conscious that she was sharing the night expanse with a maniac, she kept close to the shadowed walls of the house at first, and ducked low beneath the sills whenever she passed in front of a lighted window. She knew he would be heading off down the main drive because that was the way her sister had gone with Leon. As soon as she thought a safe distance had opened up, Briony swung out boldly from the house in a wide arc that took her toward the stable block and the swimming pool. It made sense, surely, to see if the twins were there, fooling about with the hoses, or floating facedown in death, indistinguishable to the last. She thought how she might describe it, the way they bobbed on the illuminated water’s gentle swell, and how their hair spread like tendrils and their clothed bodies softly collided and drifted apart. The dry night air slipped between the fabric of her dress and her skin, and she felt smooth and agile in the dark. There was nothing she could not describe: the gentle pad of a maniac’s tread moving sinuously along the drive, keeping to the verge to muffle his approach. But her brother was with Cecilia, and that was a burden lifted. She could describe this delicious air too, the grasses giving off their sweet cattle smell, the hard-fired earth which still held the embers of the day’s heat and exhaled the mineral odor of clay, and the faint breeze carrying from the lake a flavor of green and silver.
She broke into a loping run across the grass and thought she could go on all night, knifing through the silky air, sprung forward by the steely coil of the hard ground under her feet, and by the way darkness doubled the impression of speed. She had dreams in which she ran like this, then tilted forward, spread her arms and, yielding to faith—the only difficult part, but easy enough in sleep—left the ground by simply stepping off it, and swooped low over hedges and gates and roofs, then hurtled upward and hovered exultantly below the cloud base, above the fields, before diving down again. She sensed now how this might be achieved, through desire alone; the world she ran through loved her and would give her what she wanted and would let it happen. And then, when it did, she would describe it. Wasn’t writing a kind of soaring, an achievable form of flight, of fancy, of the imagination?
But there was a maniac treading through the night with a dark, unfulfilled heart—she had frustrated him once already—and she needed to be earthbound to describe him too. She must first protect her sister against him, and then find ways of conjuring him safely on paper. Briony slowed to a walking pace, and thought how he must hate her for interrupting him in the library. And though it horrified her, it was another entry, a moment of coming into being, another first: to be hated by an adult. Children hated generously, capriciously. It hardly mattered. But to be the object of adult hatred was an initiation into a solemn new world. It was promotion. He might have doubled back, and be waiting for her with murderous thoughts behind the stable block. But she was trying not to be afraid. She had held his gaze there in the library while her sister had slipped past her, giving no outward acknowledgment of her deliverance. It was not about thanks, she knew that, it was not about rewards. In matters of selfless love, nothing needed to be said, and she would protect her sister, even if Cecilia failed to acknowledge her debt. And Briony could not be afraid now of Robbie; better by far to let him become the object of her detestation and disgust. They had provided for all manner of pleasant things for him, the Tallis family: the very home he had grown up in, countless trips to France, and his grammar school uniform and books, and then Cambridge—and in return he had used a terrible word against her sister and, in a fantastic abuse of hospitality, used his strength against her too, and sat insolently at their dining table pretending that nothing was different. The pretense, and how she ached to expose it! Real life, her life now beginning, had sent her a villain in the form of an old family friend with strong, awkward limbs and a rugged friendly face who used to carry her on his back, and swim with her in the river, holding her against the current. That seemed about right—truth was strange and deceptive, it had to be struggled for, against the flow of the everyday. This was exactly what no one would have expected, and of course villains were not announced with hisses or soliloquies, they did not come cloaked in black, with ugly expressions. Across the other side of the house, walking away from her, were Leon and Cecilia. She might be telling him about the assault. If she was, he would have his arm around her shoulders. Together, the Tallis children would see this brute off, see him safely out of their lives. They would have to confront and convert their father, and comfort him in his rage and disappointment. That his protégé should turn out to be a maniac! Lola’s word stirred the dust of other words around it—man, mad, ax, attack, accuse—and confirmed the diagnosis.
She made her way round the stable block and stopped under the arched entrance, beneath the clock tower. She called out the twins’ names, and heard in reply only the stir and scuff of hooves, and the thump of a heavy body pressing against a stall. She was glad she had never fallen for a horse or pony, for she would surely be neglecting it by this stage of her life. She did not approach the animals now, even though they sensed her presence. In their terms, a genius, a god, was loitering on the periphery of their world and they were straining for her attention. But she turned and continued toward the swimming pool. She wondered whether having final responsibility for someone, even a creature like a horse or a dog, was fundamentally opposed to the wild and inward journey of writing. Protective worrying, engaging with another’s mind as one entered it, taking the dominant role as one guided another’s fate, was hardly mental freedom. Perhaps she might become one of those women—pitied or envied—who chose not to have children. She followed the brick path that led round the outside of the stable block. Like the earth, the sandy bricks radiated the day’s trapped heat. She felt it on her cheek and down her bare calf as she passed along. She stumbled as she hurried through the darkness of the bamboo tunnel, and emerged onto the reassuring geometry of the paving stones.
The underwater lights, installed that spring, were still a novelty. The upward bluish gleam gave everything around the pool a colorless, moonlit look, like a photograph. A glass jug, two tumblers and a piece of cloth stood on the old tin table. A third tumbler containing pieces of soft fruit stood poised at the end of the diving board. There were no bodies in the pool, no giggling from the darkness of the pavilion, no shushing from the shadows of the bamboo thickets. She took a slow turn around the pool, no longer searching, but drawn to the glow and glassy stillness of the water. For all the threat the maniac posed to her sister, it was delightful to be out so late, with permission. She did not really think the twins were in danger. Even if they had seen the framed map of the area in the library and were clever enough to read it, and were intending to leave the grounds and walk north all night, they would have to follow the drive into the woods along by the railway line. At this time of year, when the tree canopy was thick over the road, the way was in total blackness. The only other route out was through the kissing gate, down toward the river. But here too there would be no light, no way of keeping to the path or ducking the branches that hung low over it, or dodging the nettles that grew thickly on either side. They would not be bold enough to put themselves in danger.
They were safe, Cecilia was with Leon, and she, Briony, was free to wander in the dark and contemplate her extraordinary day. Her childhood had ended, she decided now as she came away from the swimming pool, the moment she tore down her poster. The fairy stories were behind her, and in the space of a few hours she had witnessed mysteries, seen an unspeakable word, interrupted brutal behavior, and by incurring the hatred of an adult whom everyone had trusted, she had become a participant in the drama of life beyond the nursery. All she had to do now was discover the stories, not just the subjects, but a way of unfolding them, that would do justice to her new knowledge. Or did she mean, her wiser grasp of her own ignorance?
Staring at water for minutes on end had put her in mind of the lake. Perhaps the boys were hiding in the island temple. It was obscure, but not too cut off from the house, a friendly little place with the consolation of water and not too many shadows. The others might have gone straight across the bridge without looking down there. She decided to keep to her route and reach the lake by circling round the back of the house.
Two minutes later she was crossing the rose beds and the gravel path in front of the Triton fountain, scene of another mystery that clearly foretold the later brutalities. As she passed it she thought she heard a faint shout, and thought she saw from the corner of her eye a point of light flash on and off. She stopped, and strained to hear over the sound of trickling water. The shout and the light had come from the woods by the river, a few hundred yards away. She walked in that direction for half a minute, and stopped to listen again. But there was nothing, nothing but the tumbling dark mass of the woods just discernible against the grayish-blue of the western sky. After waiting a while she decided to turn back. In order to pick up her path she was walking directly toward the house, toward the terrace where a paraffin globe lamp shone among glasses, bottles, and an ice bucket. The drawing-room French windows still stood wide open to the night. She could see right into the room. And by the light of a single lamp she could see, partially obscured by the hang of a velvet curtain, one end of a sofa across which there lay at a peculiar angle a cylindrical object that seemed to hover. It was only after she had covered another fifty yards that she understood that she was looking at a disembodied human leg. Closer still, and she grasped the perspectives; it was her mother’s of course, and she would be waiting for the twins. She was mostly obscured by the drapes, and one stockinged leg was supported by the knee of the other, which gave it its curious, slanting and levitated appearance.
Briony moved to a window on her left as she came right up to the house in order to be clear of Emily’s sight line. She was positioned too far behind her mother to see her eyes. She could make out only the dip in her cheekbone of her eye socket. Briony was certain her eyes would be closed. Her head was tilted back, and her hands lay lightly clasped in her lap. Her right shoulder rose and fell faintly with her breathing. Briony could not see her mouth, but she knew its downward curve, easily mistaken for the sign—the hieroglyph—of reproach. But it was not so, because her mother was endlessly kind and sweet and good. Looking at her sitting alone, late at night, was sad, but pleasantly so. Briony indulged herself by looking through the window in a spirit of farewell. Her mother was forty-six, dispiritingly old. One day she would die. There would be a funeral in the village at which Briony’s dignified reticence would hint at the vastness of her sorrow. As her friends came up to murmur their condolences they would feel awed by the scale of her tragedy. She saw herself standing alone in a great arena, within a towering colosseum, watched not only by all the people she knew but by all those she would ever know, the whole cast of her life, assembled to love her in her loss. And at the churchyard, in what they called the grandparents’ corner, she and Leon and Cecilia would stand in an interminable embrace in the long grass by the new headstone, again watched. It had to be witnessed. It was the pity of these well-wishers that pricked her eyes.
She could have gone in to her mother then and snuggled close beside her and begun a résumé of the day. If she had she would not have committed her crime. So much would not have happened, nothing would have happened, and the smoothing hand of time would have made the evening barely memorable: the night the twins ran away. Was it thirty-four, or five or six? But for no particular reason, apart from the vague obligation of the search and the pleasure of being out so late, she came away, and as she did so her shoulder caught an edge of one of the open French windows, knocking it shut. The sound was sharp—seasoned pine on hardwood—and rang out like a rebuke. To stay she would have to explain herself, so she slipped away into the darkness, tiptoeing quickly over the slabs of stone and the scented herbs that grew between them. Then she was on the lawn between the rose beds where it was possible to run soundlessly. She came round the side of the house to the front, onto the gravel she had hobbled across barefoot that afternoon.
Here she slowed as she turned down the driveway toward the bridge. She was back at her starting point and thought she was bound to see the others, or hear their calls. But there was no one. The dark shapes of the widely spaced trees across the park made her hesitate. Someone hated her, that had to be remembered, and he was unpredictable and violent. Leon, Cecilia and Mr. Marshall would be a long way off now. The nearer trees, or at least their trunks, had a human form. Or could conceal one. Even a man standing in front of a tree trunk would not be visible to her. For the first time, she was aware of the breeze pouring through the tops of the trees, and this familiar sound unsettled her. Millions of separate and precise agitations bombarded her senses. When the wind picked up briefly and died, the sound moved away from her, traveling out across the darkened park like a living thing. She stopped and wondered whether she had the courage to keep on to the bridge, cross it, and leave it to go down the steep bank to the island temple. Especially when there really was not much at stake—just a hunch of hers that the boys may have wandered down there. Unlike the adults, she had no torch. Nothing was expected of her, she was a child after all in their eyes. The twins were not in danger.
She remained on the gravel for a minute or two, not quite frightened enough to turn back, nor confident enough to go on. She could return to her mother and keep her company in the drawing room while she waited. She could take a safer route, along the driveway and back, before it entered the woods—and still give the impression of a serious search. Then, precisely because the day had proved to her that she was not a child, and that she was now a figure in a richer story and had to prove herself worthy of it, she forced herself to walk on and cross the bridge. From beneath her, amplified by the stone arch, came the hiss of the breeze disturbing the sedge, and a sudden beating of wings against water which subsided abruptly. These were everyday sounds magnified by darkness. And darkness was nothing—it was not a substance, it was not a presence, it was no more than an absence of light. The bridge led to nothing more than an artificial island in an artificial lake. It had been there two hundred years almost, and its detachment marked it out from the rest of the land, and it belonged to her more than to anyone else. She was the only one who ever came here. To the others it was no more than a corridor to and from home, a bridge between the bridges, an ornament so familiar as to be invisible. Hardman came with his son twice a year to scythe the grass around the temple. The tramps had passed through. Stray migrating geese sometimes honored the little grassy shore. Otherwise it was a lonely kingdom of rabbits, water birds and water rats.
So it should have been a simple matter, to pick her way down the bank and go across the grass toward the temple. But again, she hesitated, and simply looked, without even calling out to the twins. The building’s indistinct pallor shimmered in the dark. When she stared at it directly it dissolved completely. It stood about a hundred feet away, and nearer, in the center of the grassy stretch, there was a shrub she did not remember. Or rather, she remembered it being closer to the shore. The trees were not right either, what she could see of them. The oak was too bulbous, the elm too straggly, and in their strangeness they seemed in league. As she put her hand out to touch the parapet of the bridge, a duck startled her with a high, unpleasant call, almost human in its breathy downward note. It was the steepness of the bank, of course, which held her back, and the idea of descent, and the fact that there was not much point. But she had made her decision. She went down backward, steadying herself on clumps of grass, and at the bottom paused only to wipe her hands on her dress.
She walked directly toward the temple, and had gone seven or eight steps, and was about to call out the names of the twins, when the bush that lay directly in her path—the one she thought should be closer to the shore—began to break up in front of her, or double itself, or waver, and then fork. It was changing its shape in a complicated way, thinning at the base as a vertical column rose five or six feet. She would have stopped immediately had she not still been so completely bound to the notion that this was a bush, and that she was witnessing some trick of darkness and perspective. Another second or two, another couple of steps, and she saw that this was not so. Then she stopped. The vertical mass was a figure, a person who was now backing away from her and beginning to fade into the darker background of the trees. The remaining darker patch on the ground was also a person, changing shape again as it sat up and called her name.
“Briony?”
She heard the helplessness in Lola’s voice—it was the sound she had thought belonged to a duck—and in an instant, Briony understood completely. She was nauseous with disgust and fear. Now the larger figure reappeared, circling right round the edge of the clearing and heading for the bank down which she had just come. She knew she should attend to Lola, but she could not help watching as he mounted the slope quickly and without effort, and disappeared onto the roadway. She heard his footsteps as he strode toward the house. She had no doubt. She could describe him. There was nothing she could not describe. She knelt down beside her cousin.
“Lola. Are you all right?”
Briony touched her shoulder, and was groping for her hand without success. Lola was sitting forward, with her arms crossed around her chest, hugging herself and rocking slightly. The voice was faint and distorted, as though impeded by something like a bubble, some mucus in her throat. She needed to clear her throat. She said, vaguely, “I’m sorry, I didn’t, I’m sorry . . .”
Briony whispered, “Who was it?” and before that could be answered, she added, with all the calm she was capable of, “I saw him. I saw him.”
Meekly, Lola said, “Yes.”
For the second time that evening, Briony felt a flowering of tenderness for her cousin. Together they faced real terrors. She and her cousin were close. Briony was on her knees, trying to put her arms round Lola and gather her to her, but the body was bony and unyielding, wrapped tight about itself like a seashell. A winkle. Lola hugged herself and rocked.
Briony said, “It was him, wasn’t it?”
She felt against her chest, rather than saw, her cousin nod, slowly, reflectively. Perhaps it was exhaustion.
After many seconds Lola said in the same weak, submissive voice, “Yes. It was him.”
Suddenly, Briony wanted her to say his name. To seal the crime, frame it with the victim’s curse, close his fate with the magic of naming.
“Lola,” she whispered, and could not deny the strange elation she felt. “Lola. Who was it?”
The rocking stopped. The island became very still. Without quite shifting her position, Lola seemed to move away, or to move her shoulders, half shrug, half sway, to free herself of Briony’s sympathetic touch. She turned her head away and looked out across the emptiness where the lake was. She may have been about to speak, she may have been about to embark upon a long confession in which she would find her feelings as she spoke them and lead herself out of her numbness toward something that resembled both terror and joy. Turning away may well have been not a distancing, but an act of intimacy, a way of gathering herself to begin to speak her feelings to the only person she thought, so far from home, she could trust herself to talk to. Perhaps she had already drawn breath and parted her lips. But it did not matter because Briony was about to cut her off and the opportunity would be lost. So many seconds had passed—thirty? forty-five?—and the younger girl could no longer hold herself back. Everything connected. It was her own discovery. It was her story, the one that was writing itself around her.
“It was Robbie, wasn’t it?”
The maniac. She wanted to say the word.
Lola said nothing and did not move.
Briony said it again, this time without the trace of a question. It was a statement of fact. “It was Robbie.”
Though she had not turned, or moved at all, it was clear that something was changing in Lola, a warmth rising from her skin and a sound of dry swallowing, a heaving convulsion of muscle in her throat that was audible as a series of sinewy clicks.
Briony said it again. Simply. “Robbie.”
From far out in the lake came the fat, rounded plop of a fish jumping, a precise and solitary sound, for the breeze had dropped away completely. Nothing scary in the treetops or among the sedge now. At last Lola turned slowly to face her.
She said, “You saw him.”
“How could he,” Briony moaned. “How dare he.”
Lola placed her hand on her bare forearm and gripped. Her mild words were widely spaced. “You saw him.”
Briony drew nearer to her and covered Lola’s hand with her own. “You don’t even know yet what happened in the library, before dinner, just after we were talking. He was attacking my sister. If I hadn’t come in, I don’t know what he would have done . . .”
However close they were, it was not possible to read expressions. The dark disk of Lola’s face showed nothing at all, but Briony sensed she was only half listening, and this was confirmed when she cut in to repeat, “But you saw him. You actually saw him.”
“Of course I did. Plain as day. It was him.”
Despite the warmth of the night, Lola was beginning to shiver and Briony longed for something she could take off and place round her shoulders.
Lola said, “He came up behind me, you see. He knocked me to the ground . . . and then . . . he pushed my head back and his hand was over my eyes. I couldn’t actually, I wasn’t able . . .”
“Oh Lola.” Briony put out her hand to touch her cousin’s face and found her cheek. It was dry, but it wouldn’t be, she knew it wouldn’t be for long. “Listen to me. I couldn’t mistake him. I’ve known him all my life. I saw him.”
“Because I couldn’t say for sure. I mean, I thought it might be him by his voice.”
“What did he say?”
“Nothing. I mean, it was the sound of his voice, breathing, noises. But I couldn’t see. I couldn’t say for sure.”
“Well I can. And I will.”
And so their respective positions, which were to find public expression in the weeks and months to come, and then be pursued as demons in private for many years afterward, were established in these moments by the lake, with Briony’s certainty rising whenever her cousin appeared to doubt herself. Nothing much was ever required of Lola after that, for she was able to retreat behind an air of wounded confusion, and as treasured patient, recovering victim, lost child, let herself be bathed in the concern and guilt of the adults in her life. How could we have let this happen to a child? Lola could not, and did not need to, help them. Briony offered her a chance, and she seized it instinctively; less than that—she simply let it settle over her. She had little more to do than remain silent behind her cousin’s zeal. Lola did not need to lie, to look her supposed attacker in the eye and summon the courage to accuse him, because all that work was done for her, innocently, and without guile by the younger girl. Lola was required only to remain silent about the truth, banish it and forget it entirely, and persuade herself not of some contrary tale, but simply of her own uncertainty. She couldn’t see, his hand was over her eyes, she was terrified, she couldn’t say for sure.
Briony was there to help her at every stage. As far as she was concerned, everything fitted; the terrible present fulfilled the recent past. Events she herself witnessed foretold her cousin’s calamity. If only she, Briony, had been less innocent, less stupid. Now she saw, the affair was too consistent, too symmetrical to be anything other than what she said it was. She blamed herself for her childish assumption that Robbie would limit his attentions to Cecilia. What was she thinking of? He was a maniac after all. Anyone would do. And he was bound to go for the most vulnerable—a spindly girl, stumbling about in the dark in an unfamiliar place, bravely searching around the island temple for her brothers. Just as Briony herself had been about to do. That his victim could easily have been her increased Briony’s outrage and fervor. If her poor cousin was not able to command the truth, then she would do it for her. I can. And I will.
As early as the week that followed, the glazed surface of conviction was not without its blemishes and hairline cracks. Whenever she was conscious of them, which was not often, she was driven back, with a little swooping sensation in her stomach, to the understanding that what she knew was not literally, or not only, based on the visible. It was not simply her eyes that told her the truth. It was too dark for that. Even Lola’s face at eighteen inches was an empty oval, and this figure was many feet away, and turned from her as it moved back around the clearing. But nor was this figure invisible, and its size and manner of moving were familiar to her. Her eyes confirmed the sum of all she knew and had recently experienced. The truth was in the symmetry, which was to say, it was founded in common sense. The truth instructed her eyes. So when she said, over and again, I saw him, she meant it, and was perfectly honest, as well as passionate. What she meant was rather more complex than what everyone else so eagerly understood, and her moments of unease came when she felt that she could not express these nuances. She did not even seriously try. There were no opportunities, no time, no permission. Within a couple of days, no, within a matter of hours, a process was moving fast and well beyond her control. Her words summoned awful powers from the familiar and picturesque local town. It was as if these terrifying authorities, these uniformed agents, had been lying in wait behind the fa?ades of pretty buildings for a disaster they knew must come. They knew their own minds, they knew what they wanted and how to proceed. She was asked again and again, and as she repeated herself, the burden of consistency was pressed upon her. What she had said she must say again. Minor deviations earned her little frowns on wise brows, or a degree of frostiness and withdrawal of sympathy. She became anxious to please, and learned quickly that the minor qualifications she might have added would disrupt the process that she herself had set in train.
She was like a bride-to-be who begins to feel her sickening qualms as the day approaches, and dares not speak her mind because so many preparations have been made on her behalf. The happiness and convenience of so many good people would be put at risk. These are fleeting moments of private disquiet, only dispelled by abandoning herself to the joy and excitement of those around her. So many decent people could not be wrong, and doubts like hers, she’s been told, are to be expected. Briony did not wish to cancel the whole arrangement. She did not think she had the courage, after all her initial certainty and two or three days of patient, kindly interviewing, to withdraw her evidence. However, she would have preferred to qualify, or complicate, her use of the word “saw.” Less like seeing, more like knowing. Then she could have left it to her interrogators to decide whether they would proceed together in the name of this kind of vision. They were impassive whenever she wavered, and firmly recalled her to her earliest statements. Was she a silly girl, their manner implied, who had wasted everybody’s time? And they took an austere view of the visual. There was enough light, it was established, from stars, and from the cloud base reflecting streetlights from the nearest town. Either she saw, or she did not see. There lay nothing in between; they did not say as much, but their brusqueness implied it. It was in those moments, when she felt their coolness, that she reached back to revive her first ardor and said it again. I saw him. I know it was him. Then it was comforting to feel she was confirming what they already knew.
She would never be able to console herself that she was pressured or bullied. She never was. She trapped herself, she marched into the labyrinth of her own construction, and was too young, too awestruck, too keen to please, to insist on making her own way back. She was not endowed with, or old enough to possess, such independence of spirit. An imposing congregation had massed itself around her first certainties, and now it was waiting and she could not disappoint it at the altar. Her doubts could be neutralized only by plunging in deeper. By clinging tightly to what she believed she knew, narrowing her thoughts, reiterating her testimony, she was able to keep from mind the damage she only dimly sensed she was doing. When the matter was closed, when the sentence was passed and the congregation dispersed, a ruthless youthful forgetting, a willful erasing, protected her well into her teens.
“Well I can. And I will.”
They sat in silence for a while, and Lola’s shivering began to subside. Briony supposed she should get her cousin home, but she was reluctant to break this closeness for the moment—she had her arms around the older girl’s shoulders and she seemed to yield now to Briony’s touch. They saw far beyond the lake a bobbing pinprick of light—a torch being carried along the drive—but they did not comment on it. When at last Lola spoke her tone was reflective, as though she were pondering subtle currents of counterarguments.
“But it doesn’t make sense. He’s such a close friend of your family. It might not have been him.”
Briony murmured, “You wouldn’t be saying that if you’d been with me in the library.”
Lola sighed and shook her head slowly, as though trying to reconcile herself to the unacceptable truth.
They were silent again and they might have sat longer had it not been for the damp—not quite yet dew—that was beginning to settle on the grass as the clouds cleared and the temperature dropped.
When Briony whispered to her cousin, “Do you think you can walk?” she nodded bravely. Briony helped her to stand, and arm in arm at first, and then with Lola’s weight on Briony’s shoulder, they made their way across the clearing toward the bridge. They reached the bottom of the slope and it was here that Lola finally began to cry.
“I can’t go up there,” she had several attempts at saying. “I’m just too weak.” It would be better, Briony decided, for her to run to the house and fetch help, and she was just about to explain this to Lola and settle her on the ground when they heard voices from the road above, and then torchlight was in their eyes. It was a miracle, Briony thought, when she heard her brother’s voice. Like the true hero he was, he came down the bank in several easy strides and without even asking what the trouble was, took Lola into his arms and picked her up as though she were a small child. Cecilia was calling down in a voice that sounded hoarse with concern. No one answered her. Leon was already making his way up the incline at such a pace it was an effort to keep up with him. Even so, before they reached the driveway, before he had the chance to set Lola down, Briony was beginning to tell him what had happened, exactly as she had seen it.
She broke into a loping run across the grass and thought she could go on all night, knifing through the silky air, sprung forward by the steely coil of the hard ground under her feet, and by the way darkness doubled the impression of speed. She had dreams in which she ran like this, then tilted forward, spread her arms and, yielding to faith—the only difficult part, but easy enough in sleep—left the ground by simply stepping off it, and swooped low over hedges and gates and roofs, then hurtled upward and hovered exultantly below the cloud base, above the fields, before diving down again. She sensed now how this might be achieved, through desire alone; the world she ran through loved her and would give her what she wanted and would let it happen. And then, when it did, she would describe it. Wasn’t writing a kind of soaring, an achievable form of flight, of fancy, of the imagination?
But there was a maniac treading through the night with a dark, unfulfilled heart—she had frustrated him once already—and she needed to be earthbound to describe him too. She must first protect her sister against him, and then find ways of conjuring him safely on paper. Briony slowed to a walking pace, and thought how he must hate her for interrupting him in the library. And though it horrified her, it was another entry, a moment of coming into being, another first: to be hated by an adult. Children hated generously, capriciously. It hardly mattered. But to be the object of adult hatred was an initiation into a solemn new world. It was promotion. He might have doubled back, and be waiting for her with murderous thoughts behind the stable block. But she was trying not to be afraid. She had held his gaze there in the library while her sister had slipped past her, giving no outward acknowledgment of her deliverance. It was not about thanks, she knew that, it was not about rewards. In matters of selfless love, nothing needed to be said, and she would protect her sister, even if Cecilia failed to acknowledge her debt. And Briony could not be afraid now of Robbie; better by far to let him become the object of her detestation and disgust. They had provided for all manner of pleasant things for him, the Tallis family: the very home he had grown up in, countless trips to France, and his grammar school uniform and books, and then Cambridge—and in return he had used a terrible word against her sister and, in a fantastic abuse of hospitality, used his strength against her too, and sat insolently at their dining table pretending that nothing was different. The pretense, and how she ached to expose it! Real life, her life now beginning, had sent her a villain in the form of an old family friend with strong, awkward limbs and a rugged friendly face who used to carry her on his back, and swim with her in the river, holding her against the current. That seemed about right—truth was strange and deceptive, it had to be struggled for, against the flow of the everyday. This was exactly what no one would have expected, and of course villains were not announced with hisses or soliloquies, they did not come cloaked in black, with ugly expressions. Across the other side of the house, walking away from her, were Leon and Cecilia. She might be telling him about the assault. If she was, he would have his arm around her shoulders. Together, the Tallis children would see this brute off, see him safely out of their lives. They would have to confront and convert their father, and comfort him in his rage and disappointment. That his protégé should turn out to be a maniac! Lola’s word stirred the dust of other words around it—man, mad, ax, attack, accuse—and confirmed the diagnosis.
She made her way round the stable block and stopped under the arched entrance, beneath the clock tower. She called out the twins’ names, and heard in reply only the stir and scuff of hooves, and the thump of a heavy body pressing against a stall. She was glad she had never fallen for a horse or pony, for she would surely be neglecting it by this stage of her life. She did not approach the animals now, even though they sensed her presence. In their terms, a genius, a god, was loitering on the periphery of their world and they were straining for her attention. But she turned and continued toward the swimming pool. She wondered whether having final responsibility for someone, even a creature like a horse or a dog, was fundamentally opposed to the wild and inward journey of writing. Protective worrying, engaging with another’s mind as one entered it, taking the dominant role as one guided another’s fate, was hardly mental freedom. Perhaps she might become one of those women—pitied or envied—who chose not to have children. She followed the brick path that led round the outside of the stable block. Like the earth, the sandy bricks radiated the day’s trapped heat. She felt it on her cheek and down her bare calf as she passed along. She stumbled as she hurried through the darkness of the bamboo tunnel, and emerged onto the reassuring geometry of the paving stones.
The underwater lights, installed that spring, were still a novelty. The upward bluish gleam gave everything around the pool a colorless, moonlit look, like a photograph. A glass jug, two tumblers and a piece of cloth stood on the old tin table. A third tumbler containing pieces of soft fruit stood poised at the end of the diving board. There were no bodies in the pool, no giggling from the darkness of the pavilion, no shushing from the shadows of the bamboo thickets. She took a slow turn around the pool, no longer searching, but drawn to the glow and glassy stillness of the water. For all the threat the maniac posed to her sister, it was delightful to be out so late, with permission. She did not really think the twins were in danger. Even if they had seen the framed map of the area in the library and were clever enough to read it, and were intending to leave the grounds and walk north all night, they would have to follow the drive into the woods along by the railway line. At this time of year, when the tree canopy was thick over the road, the way was in total blackness. The only other route out was through the kissing gate, down toward the river. But here too there would be no light, no way of keeping to the path or ducking the branches that hung low over it, or dodging the nettles that grew thickly on either side. They would not be bold enough to put themselves in danger.
They were safe, Cecilia was with Leon, and she, Briony, was free to wander in the dark and contemplate her extraordinary day. Her childhood had ended, she decided now as she came away from the swimming pool, the moment she tore down her poster. The fairy stories were behind her, and in the space of a few hours she had witnessed mysteries, seen an unspeakable word, interrupted brutal behavior, and by incurring the hatred of an adult whom everyone had trusted, she had become a participant in the drama of life beyond the nursery. All she had to do now was discover the stories, not just the subjects, but a way of unfolding them, that would do justice to her new knowledge. Or did she mean, her wiser grasp of her own ignorance?
Staring at water for minutes on end had put her in mind of the lake. Perhaps the boys were hiding in the island temple. It was obscure, but not too cut off from the house, a friendly little place with the consolation of water and not too many shadows. The others might have gone straight across the bridge without looking down there. She decided to keep to her route and reach the lake by circling round the back of the house.
Two minutes later she was crossing the rose beds and the gravel path in front of the Triton fountain, scene of another mystery that clearly foretold the later brutalities. As she passed it she thought she heard a faint shout, and thought she saw from the corner of her eye a point of light flash on and off. She stopped, and strained to hear over the sound of trickling water. The shout and the light had come from the woods by the river, a few hundred yards away. She walked in that direction for half a minute, and stopped to listen again. But there was nothing, nothing but the tumbling dark mass of the woods just discernible against the grayish-blue of the western sky. After waiting a while she decided to turn back. In order to pick up her path she was walking directly toward the house, toward the terrace where a paraffin globe lamp shone among glasses, bottles, and an ice bucket. The drawing-room French windows still stood wide open to the night. She could see right into the room. And by the light of a single lamp she could see, partially obscured by the hang of a velvet curtain, one end of a sofa across which there lay at a peculiar angle a cylindrical object that seemed to hover. It was only after she had covered another fifty yards that she understood that she was looking at a disembodied human leg. Closer still, and she grasped the perspectives; it was her mother’s of course, and she would be waiting for the twins. She was mostly obscured by the drapes, and one stockinged leg was supported by the knee of the other, which gave it its curious, slanting and levitated appearance.
Briony moved to a window on her left as she came right up to the house in order to be clear of Emily’s sight line. She was positioned too far behind her mother to see her eyes. She could make out only the dip in her cheekbone of her eye socket. Briony was certain her eyes would be closed. Her head was tilted back, and her hands lay lightly clasped in her lap. Her right shoulder rose and fell faintly with her breathing. Briony could not see her mouth, but she knew its downward curve, easily mistaken for the sign—the hieroglyph—of reproach. But it was not so, because her mother was endlessly kind and sweet and good. Looking at her sitting alone, late at night, was sad, but pleasantly so. Briony indulged herself by looking through the window in a spirit of farewell. Her mother was forty-six, dispiritingly old. One day she would die. There would be a funeral in the village at which Briony’s dignified reticence would hint at the vastness of her sorrow. As her friends came up to murmur their condolences they would feel awed by the scale of her tragedy. She saw herself standing alone in a great arena, within a towering colosseum, watched not only by all the people she knew but by all those she would ever know, the whole cast of her life, assembled to love her in her loss. And at the churchyard, in what they called the grandparents’ corner, she and Leon and Cecilia would stand in an interminable embrace in the long grass by the new headstone, again watched. It had to be witnessed. It was the pity of these well-wishers that pricked her eyes.
She could have gone in to her mother then and snuggled close beside her and begun a résumé of the day. If she had she would not have committed her crime. So much would not have happened, nothing would have happened, and the smoothing hand of time would have made the evening barely memorable: the night the twins ran away. Was it thirty-four, or five or six? But for no particular reason, apart from the vague obligation of the search and the pleasure of being out so late, she came away, and as she did so her shoulder caught an edge of one of the open French windows, knocking it shut. The sound was sharp—seasoned pine on hardwood—and rang out like a rebuke. To stay she would have to explain herself, so she slipped away into the darkness, tiptoeing quickly over the slabs of stone and the scented herbs that grew between them. Then she was on the lawn between the rose beds where it was possible to run soundlessly. She came round the side of the house to the front, onto the gravel she had hobbled across barefoot that afternoon.
Here she slowed as she turned down the driveway toward the bridge. She was back at her starting point and thought she was bound to see the others, or hear their calls. But there was no one. The dark shapes of the widely spaced trees across the park made her hesitate. Someone hated her, that had to be remembered, and he was unpredictable and violent. Leon, Cecilia and Mr. Marshall would be a long way off now. The nearer trees, or at least their trunks, had a human form. Or could conceal one. Even a man standing in front of a tree trunk would not be visible to her. For the first time, she was aware of the breeze pouring through the tops of the trees, and this familiar sound unsettled her. Millions of separate and precise agitations bombarded her senses. When the wind picked up briefly and died, the sound moved away from her, traveling out across the darkened park like a living thing. She stopped and wondered whether she had the courage to keep on to the bridge, cross it, and leave it to go down the steep bank to the island temple. Especially when there really was not much at stake—just a hunch of hers that the boys may have wandered down there. Unlike the adults, she had no torch. Nothing was expected of her, she was a child after all in their eyes. The twins were not in danger.
She remained on the gravel for a minute or two, not quite frightened enough to turn back, nor confident enough to go on. She could return to her mother and keep her company in the drawing room while she waited. She could take a safer route, along the driveway and back, before it entered the woods—and still give the impression of a serious search. Then, precisely because the day had proved to her that she was not a child, and that she was now a figure in a richer story and had to prove herself worthy of it, she forced herself to walk on and cross the bridge. From beneath her, amplified by the stone arch, came the hiss of the breeze disturbing the sedge, and a sudden beating of wings against water which subsided abruptly. These were everyday sounds magnified by darkness. And darkness was nothing—it was not a substance, it was not a presence, it was no more than an absence of light. The bridge led to nothing more than an artificial island in an artificial lake. It had been there two hundred years almost, and its detachment marked it out from the rest of the land, and it belonged to her more than to anyone else. She was the only one who ever came here. To the others it was no more than a corridor to and from home, a bridge between the bridges, an ornament so familiar as to be invisible. Hardman came with his son twice a year to scythe the grass around the temple. The tramps had passed through. Stray migrating geese sometimes honored the little grassy shore. Otherwise it was a lonely kingdom of rabbits, water birds and water rats.
So it should have been a simple matter, to pick her way down the bank and go across the grass toward the temple. But again, she hesitated, and simply looked, without even calling out to the twins. The building’s indistinct pallor shimmered in the dark. When she stared at it directly it dissolved completely. It stood about a hundred feet away, and nearer, in the center of the grassy stretch, there was a shrub she did not remember. Or rather, she remembered it being closer to the shore. The trees were not right either, what she could see of them. The oak was too bulbous, the elm too straggly, and in their strangeness they seemed in league. As she put her hand out to touch the parapet of the bridge, a duck startled her with a high, unpleasant call, almost human in its breathy downward note. It was the steepness of the bank, of course, which held her back, and the idea of descent, and the fact that there was not much point. But she had made her decision. She went down backward, steadying herself on clumps of grass, and at the bottom paused only to wipe her hands on her dress.
She walked directly toward the temple, and had gone seven or eight steps, and was about to call out the names of the twins, when the bush that lay directly in her path—the one she thought should be closer to the shore—began to break up in front of her, or double itself, or waver, and then fork. It was changing its shape in a complicated way, thinning at the base as a vertical column rose five or six feet. She would have stopped immediately had she not still been so completely bound to the notion that this was a bush, and that she was witnessing some trick of darkness and perspective. Another second or two, another couple of steps, and she saw that this was not so. Then she stopped. The vertical mass was a figure, a person who was now backing away from her and beginning to fade into the darker background of the trees. The remaining darker patch on the ground was also a person, changing shape again as it sat up and called her name.
“Briony?”
She heard the helplessness in Lola’s voice—it was the sound she had thought belonged to a duck—and in an instant, Briony understood completely. She was nauseous with disgust and fear. Now the larger figure reappeared, circling right round the edge of the clearing and heading for the bank down which she had just come. She knew she should attend to Lola, but she could not help watching as he mounted the slope quickly and without effort, and disappeared onto the roadway. She heard his footsteps as he strode toward the house. She had no doubt. She could describe him. There was nothing she could not describe. She knelt down beside her cousin.
“Lola. Are you all right?”
Briony touched her shoulder, and was groping for her hand without success. Lola was sitting forward, with her arms crossed around her chest, hugging herself and rocking slightly. The voice was faint and distorted, as though impeded by something like a bubble, some mucus in her throat. She needed to clear her throat. She said, vaguely, “I’m sorry, I didn’t, I’m sorry . . .”
Briony whispered, “Who was it?” and before that could be answered, she added, with all the calm she was capable of, “I saw him. I saw him.”
Meekly, Lola said, “Yes.”
For the second time that evening, Briony felt a flowering of tenderness for her cousin. Together they faced real terrors. She and her cousin were close. Briony was on her knees, trying to put her arms round Lola and gather her to her, but the body was bony and unyielding, wrapped tight about itself like a seashell. A winkle. Lola hugged herself and rocked.
Briony said, “It was him, wasn’t it?”
She felt against her chest, rather than saw, her cousin nod, slowly, reflectively. Perhaps it was exhaustion.
After many seconds Lola said in the same weak, submissive voice, “Yes. It was him.”
Suddenly, Briony wanted her to say his name. To seal the crime, frame it with the victim’s curse, close his fate with the magic of naming.
“Lola,” she whispered, and could not deny the strange elation she felt. “Lola. Who was it?”
The rocking stopped. The island became very still. Without quite shifting her position, Lola seemed to move away, or to move her shoulders, half shrug, half sway, to free herself of Briony’s sympathetic touch. She turned her head away and looked out across the emptiness where the lake was. She may have been about to speak, she may have been about to embark upon a long confession in which she would find her feelings as she spoke them and lead herself out of her numbness toward something that resembled both terror and joy. Turning away may well have been not a distancing, but an act of intimacy, a way of gathering herself to begin to speak her feelings to the only person she thought, so far from home, she could trust herself to talk to. Perhaps she had already drawn breath and parted her lips. But it did not matter because Briony was about to cut her off and the opportunity would be lost. So many seconds had passed—thirty? forty-five?—and the younger girl could no longer hold herself back. Everything connected. It was her own discovery. It was her story, the one that was writing itself around her.
“It was Robbie, wasn’t it?”
The maniac. She wanted to say the word.
Lola said nothing and did not move.
Briony said it again, this time without the trace of a question. It was a statement of fact. “It was Robbie.”
Though she had not turned, or moved at all, it was clear that something was changing in Lola, a warmth rising from her skin and a sound of dry swallowing, a heaving convulsion of muscle in her throat that was audible as a series of sinewy clicks.
Briony said it again. Simply. “Robbie.”
From far out in the lake came the fat, rounded plop of a fish jumping, a precise and solitary sound, for the breeze had dropped away completely. Nothing scary in the treetops or among the sedge now. At last Lola turned slowly to face her.
She said, “You saw him.”
“How could he,” Briony moaned. “How dare he.”
Lola placed her hand on her bare forearm and gripped. Her mild words were widely spaced. “You saw him.”
Briony drew nearer to her and covered Lola’s hand with her own. “You don’t even know yet what happened in the library, before dinner, just after we were talking. He was attacking my sister. If I hadn’t come in, I don’t know what he would have done . . .”
However close they were, it was not possible to read expressions. The dark disk of Lola’s face showed nothing at all, but Briony sensed she was only half listening, and this was confirmed when she cut in to repeat, “But you saw him. You actually saw him.”
“Of course I did. Plain as day. It was him.”
Despite the warmth of the night, Lola was beginning to shiver and Briony longed for something she could take off and place round her shoulders.
Lola said, “He came up behind me, you see. He knocked me to the ground . . . and then . . . he pushed my head back and his hand was over my eyes. I couldn’t actually, I wasn’t able . . .”
“Oh Lola.” Briony put out her hand to touch her cousin’s face and found her cheek. It was dry, but it wouldn’t be, she knew it wouldn’t be for long. “Listen to me. I couldn’t mistake him. I’ve known him all my life. I saw him.”
“Because I couldn’t say for sure. I mean, I thought it might be him by his voice.”
“What did he say?”
“Nothing. I mean, it was the sound of his voice, breathing, noises. But I couldn’t see. I couldn’t say for sure.”
“Well I can. And I will.”
And so their respective positions, which were to find public expression in the weeks and months to come, and then be pursued as demons in private for many years afterward, were established in these moments by the lake, with Briony’s certainty rising whenever her cousin appeared to doubt herself. Nothing much was ever required of Lola after that, for she was able to retreat behind an air of wounded confusion, and as treasured patient, recovering victim, lost child, let herself be bathed in the concern and guilt of the adults in her life. How could we have let this happen to a child? Lola could not, and did not need to, help them. Briony offered her a chance, and she seized it instinctively; less than that—she simply let it settle over her. She had little more to do than remain silent behind her cousin’s zeal. Lola did not need to lie, to look her supposed attacker in the eye and summon the courage to accuse him, because all that work was done for her, innocently, and without guile by the younger girl. Lola was required only to remain silent about the truth, banish it and forget it entirely, and persuade herself not of some contrary tale, but simply of her own uncertainty. She couldn’t see, his hand was over her eyes, she was terrified, she couldn’t say for sure.
Briony was there to help her at every stage. As far as she was concerned, everything fitted; the terrible present fulfilled the recent past. Events she herself witnessed foretold her cousin’s calamity. If only she, Briony, had been less innocent, less stupid. Now she saw, the affair was too consistent, too symmetrical to be anything other than what she said it was. She blamed herself for her childish assumption that Robbie would limit his attentions to Cecilia. What was she thinking of? He was a maniac after all. Anyone would do. And he was bound to go for the most vulnerable—a spindly girl, stumbling about in the dark in an unfamiliar place, bravely searching around the island temple for her brothers. Just as Briony herself had been about to do. That his victim could easily have been her increased Briony’s outrage and fervor. If her poor cousin was not able to command the truth, then she would do it for her. I can. And I will.
As early as the week that followed, the glazed surface of conviction was not without its blemishes and hairline cracks. Whenever she was conscious of them, which was not often, she was driven back, with a little swooping sensation in her stomach, to the understanding that what she knew was not literally, or not only, based on the visible. It was not simply her eyes that told her the truth. It was too dark for that. Even Lola’s face at eighteen inches was an empty oval, and this figure was many feet away, and turned from her as it moved back around the clearing. But nor was this figure invisible, and its size and manner of moving were familiar to her. Her eyes confirmed the sum of all she knew and had recently experienced. The truth was in the symmetry, which was to say, it was founded in common sense. The truth instructed her eyes. So when she said, over and again, I saw him, she meant it, and was perfectly honest, as well as passionate. What she meant was rather more complex than what everyone else so eagerly understood, and her moments of unease came when she felt that she could not express these nuances. She did not even seriously try. There were no opportunities, no time, no permission. Within a couple of days, no, within a matter of hours, a process was moving fast and well beyond her control. Her words summoned awful powers from the familiar and picturesque local town. It was as if these terrifying authorities, these uniformed agents, had been lying in wait behind the fa?ades of pretty buildings for a disaster they knew must come. They knew their own minds, they knew what they wanted and how to proceed. She was asked again and again, and as she repeated herself, the burden of consistency was pressed upon her. What she had said she must say again. Minor deviations earned her little frowns on wise brows, or a degree of frostiness and withdrawal of sympathy. She became anxious to please, and learned quickly that the minor qualifications she might have added would disrupt the process that she herself had set in train.
She was like a bride-to-be who begins to feel her sickening qualms as the day approaches, and dares not speak her mind because so many preparations have been made on her behalf. The happiness and convenience of so many good people would be put at risk. These are fleeting moments of private disquiet, only dispelled by abandoning herself to the joy and excitement of those around her. So many decent people could not be wrong, and doubts like hers, she’s been told, are to be expected. Briony did not wish to cancel the whole arrangement. She did not think she had the courage, after all her initial certainty and two or three days of patient, kindly interviewing, to withdraw her evidence. However, she would have preferred to qualify, or complicate, her use of the word “saw.” Less like seeing, more like knowing. Then she could have left it to her interrogators to decide whether they would proceed together in the name of this kind of vision. They were impassive whenever she wavered, and firmly recalled her to her earliest statements. Was she a silly girl, their manner implied, who had wasted everybody’s time? And they took an austere view of the visual. There was enough light, it was established, from stars, and from the cloud base reflecting streetlights from the nearest town. Either she saw, or she did not see. There lay nothing in between; they did not say as much, but their brusqueness implied it. It was in those moments, when she felt their coolness, that she reached back to revive her first ardor and said it again. I saw him. I know it was him. Then it was comforting to feel she was confirming what they already knew.
She would never be able to console herself that she was pressured or bullied. She never was. She trapped herself, she marched into the labyrinth of her own construction, and was too young, too awestruck, too keen to please, to insist on making her own way back. She was not endowed with, or old enough to possess, such independence of spirit. An imposing congregation had massed itself around her first certainties, and now it was waiting and she could not disappoint it at the altar. Her doubts could be neutralized only by plunging in deeper. By clinging tightly to what she believed she knew, narrowing her thoughts, reiterating her testimony, she was able to keep from mind the damage she only dimly sensed she was doing. When the matter was closed, when the sentence was passed and the congregation dispersed, a ruthless youthful forgetting, a willful erasing, protected her well into her teens.
“Well I can. And I will.”
They sat in silence for a while, and Lola’s shivering began to subside. Briony supposed she should get her cousin home, but she was reluctant to break this closeness for the moment—she had her arms around the older girl’s shoulders and she seemed to yield now to Briony’s touch. They saw far beyond the lake a bobbing pinprick of light—a torch being carried along the drive—but they did not comment on it. When at last Lola spoke her tone was reflective, as though she were pondering subtle currents of counterarguments.
“But it doesn’t make sense. He’s such a close friend of your family. It might not have been him.”
Briony murmured, “You wouldn’t be saying that if you’d been with me in the library.”
Lola sighed and shook her head slowly, as though trying to reconcile herself to the unacceptable truth.
They were silent again and they might have sat longer had it not been for the damp—not quite yet dew—that was beginning to settle on the grass as the clouds cleared and the temperature dropped.
When Briony whispered to her cousin, “Do you think you can walk?” she nodded bravely. Briony helped her to stand, and arm in arm at first, and then with Lola’s weight on Briony’s shoulder, they made their way across the clearing toward the bridge. They reached the bottom of the slope and it was here that Lola finally began to cry.
“I can’t go up there,” she had several attempts at saying. “I’m just too weak.” It would be better, Briony decided, for her to run to the house and fetch help, and she was just about to explain this to Lola and settle her on the ground when they heard voices from the road above, and then torchlight was in their eyes. It was a miracle, Briony thought, when she heard her brother’s voice. Like the true hero he was, he came down the bank in several easy strides and without even asking what the trouble was, took Lola into his arms and picked her up as though she were a small child. Cecilia was calling down in a voice that sounded hoarse with concern. No one answered her. Leon was already making his way up the incline at such a pace it was an effort to keep up with him. Even so, before they reached the driveway, before he had the chance to set Lola down, Briony was beginning to tell him what had happened, exactly as she had seen it.
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